A way of thinking about this journey

Hello mstev2 

A great post. 98% of people with Prostate Cancer die WITH it not OF it.

I don't even look on my diagnosis as an illness - i look on it as something that affects my life (side effects, appointments etc) but 99.9% of the time I have a positive attitude and right at the start of my journey I told my wife "I will beat this bast**d". I get on and live life to the full - as if there's nothing wrong with me!

There have been some positives for me - I have made new friends on the Community, some who I speak to off line. It's brought to light a couple of other minor medical issues I have and they have been sorted. I have become a "Community Champion" 9 months ago - my wife says I am a better person for the Macmillan training and I now have time for people and empathy which I was lacking. My computer skills have improved. My medical knowledge has increased and perhaps the most important change for me - I can control any worry and anxiety and I sleep better!!

When folk ask me "do you worry about your treatment" or "what if it comes back" I have faith in my team and to quote Doris Day - "Que Sera Sera".

All in all - I am living with it and considering where I started off (click on my avatar for the full story) I consider myself to be a "lucky boy".

Best wishes - Brian.

Love everyone’s positivity on this platform! Thank you for sharing this, it has certainly made me smile :). 

Thanks mstev2 for a brilliant post. I have had conversations with our GP (more of a friend as we live in a small village) about attitude towards being given a cancer diagnosis and we have agreed that even for those with a treatable, not curable at the moment, diagnosis then it should be classified as a chronic illness. Her father was diagnosed with metastatic prostate cancer at the same time as hubby in 2020 so we have good discussions about treatment pathways and how, with the use of aids, where to get them, complimentary therapies etc our loved ones can maintain a good quality of life. My hubby has the only mobility scooter in the village (so far) and is well known for getting from A to B. It allows us to carry on doing the things we did prior to diagnosis. The car carries his seat walker which allows him to walk around town safely and gives him a level of independence. Arthritis is beginning to impact him using a normal knife and fork so we have found large handled ones. His other aids from when he had his stroke remain in store and will be got out if needed.

Hubby had a stroke and heart attack three months after we got married 27 years ago, then a complete mental breakdown a month later quickly followed by a diagnosis of PTSD which took 2 years of therapy to get him out of the house, but still impacts him now. To help me, I started advocating for disabled people and helped them wade through the quagmire of the disability benefits system as well as helping get the law changed to allow expats to take their disability benefits with them when they decided to move to a European country, so well done for people like your daughter and tell her that she can make a difference. We could have gone under if we had let it but our philosophy when told 'this is as good as it is going to get' was to fight it and prove them wrong. I will always remember my grandmothers words 'Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone'. This positive attitude has been our mantra and I am sure it has helped us get this far. Everyone has bad days but we just remember all the things we have done and how lucky we are to still have a good life together.

Thank you for you response here Alwayshope. I will tell my daughter that she is making a difference, with her team of fellow disabled advocates.

She fact checks everything she says. I may not always approve of the way she says it, but I approve of the motive and the enthusiasm.

I have also taken note of your positive attitude and the "defeat each new problem as it arises" approach. I will try and follow that.

My life includes working for a charity also trying hard to help navigate through the bureaucracy which should support people but too often hinders them. I am working at home at the moment because, being newly diagnosed and unsure, I am prone to spending time staring into space as I wonder what's next.

Please accept my thanks for you words and my best wishes to you and your husband.

Hello mstev2 .

You are still at the difficult stage of waiting for a treatment plan so I expect a lot of time is spent thinking about prostate cancer but once you are under the next phase of treatment things will settle down. The HT is already doing its job so this gives time to sort out your own personal plan but with your statistics there are several options open to you. Once you know what they are then there is plenty of help to let you know what to expect. Afterwards a new phase begins with life returning to normal, albeit slightly different from before as you have to adjust to the effects the hormone therapy has on your body. 

Thank you for contributing such a brilliant post.  Thank your daughter from us too.

All the best to both of you.