Prostate cancer

It's a long story.

Are you sitting comfortably, then I'll begin.

A couple of months ago I was told that my job was to be changed (to include mucking out the cattle amongst other manual things).

I did try it but it nearly crippled me, literally.  They were supposed to be letting me know what this new job entitled, but never did.

The anxiety levels just rose and rose, my doctor wanted to put me on Anti-depressants.

I'll let you know more tomorrow.

Oh goodness Steve, that is the last thing you need. I remember you saying about the job maybe including mucking out, but thought that was only temporary. No wonder you were depressed and anxious. However well you are doing with your remission, doing that sort of physical work is too much. 

I have just had a run in with Richard. His mood swings are really hard to cope with. We had agreed that he didn't need the four wheeler with a seat as he has a three wheeler if he needs help getting around. Now he is on these steroids, he is much more agile and can get around with a stick. The four wheeler was gifted from a lovely lady and is almost brand new. It is in the way as I have 11 for Xmas for three days, so it was agreed I would advertise it on Freecycle. However, having already been told by me and his visiting sister, it would be totally wrong to sell it, we have now had a blazing row as I told him I am "passing the good deed on".  He explodes one minute and the next is in tears cos supposedly I am being nasty and shouting. Not a bad word for days and then suddenly, I am being accused of being bad tempered.

So frustrating. Sorry for the rant, just hate the unfairness when I do all the work and that is the thanks I get! Grrrr.

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Hi Gina and Steve, Gina a few posts back you asked if we had neuropathy, yes I do it affects my toes two possible causes, as you stated allopurinol side effects or out of control diabetes.

As to Richard he needs to go to anger management, it's not a punishment it's a good treatment, but might be a touchy subject, might be easier if you both had counciling.

Steve I thought the way you were talking at Maggie's things had settled down, it's a shame your still having problems.

Oh, I had forgotten that, been so many things. It seems to be more of a problem now hence the visit to docs. Thing is, if he comes off the Allolpurinol he is likely to get gout again. The doc asked if we wanted to stop it and I have suggested to stop if for a short time to see if alleviates the numbness. If not, then he will have to go back on it.

He is not normally bad with anger but I think the steroids are not helping, combined with the hormone treatment. We are really past any counselling re the marriage as you know. I just find that anger one minute and tears the next so difficult to cope with and then blaming me. 

Oh and I think you have both passed something to me as I am now getting hot flushes at night too. Thought that all stopped years ago .

Gina

Could be the steroids, I take hormones but no steroids, don't get angry but I can cry for no apparent reason, totally unlike me, so I go back to my bad things and good things lists for a pick me up, nice of you to come out in sympathy with the flushes 

Well think it is a combo of steroids and homones. Well considering I haven't had hot flushes for years until you guys have mentioned it, I do blame you both .

Ha ha ha ha why not 

Hi,

I have local severe PC and as it happens I have just been diagnosed with peripheral neuropathy. Hard to say whether it's due to the PC itself, the radiation treatment or drugs from the PC, or other things: my heart (bypass) and/or being somewhat overweight (pre-diabetic).  I had a hospital consultation on it (pins and needles etc). There was not much they could do. They do not consider it very serious, but have kept me on there list, in case it gets worse.  

Gina, Replying to this post, I can understand you losing your temper.  It looks like my situation with Tracey.

I'm starting to get better, not snapping, I just have to remember the breathing techniques from the counselor.

Hopefully with the work situation sorted(ish) I should be in a better state.

There are still some things at work which I will monitor, I have some things that I can use against a certain person, just see what develops.

I had been promised a couple of months ago a sit down to discuss my job, but have been in limbo, my mind working overtime.

I could go on for hours (what do you mean "You do!").

Enough about me.

You don't deserve to be exploded at.  The more I read what you wrote, the more it mirrors me and Tracey.

Rant as much as you want to us.  We can see you are doing your utmost for Richard.

I think you are brilliant!!!

I can be so far down in the dumps, then a message from you and I am smiling & laughing.  It's infectious!

Ulls, Playing Monday morning catch up.  I try to keep the Macmillan to a minimum on a Sunday, keeps me and Tracey happy (well keeps Tracey happier).

A lot of what Gina said resonates with me.  I never mean to snap, hopefully now with a bit of the burden off me...

I remember the counselling I had back in August, breathing techniques to help stop snapping at Tracey.

The hardest thing is to admit that there is a problem.

At work we are all being TUPE'd at the end of December.  There are some new admin jobs for me to do, a bit stocktaking and ordering a lot of the non- slaughter things.

There's still someone who has got it in for me at work, but I have some ammunition of my own.  I keep all emails as evidence.