Having to be positive about your feelings re diagnosis for the sake of family members

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I find myself trying to be positive around my family to protect them 

when I’m feeling panic about my diagnosis 

it’s tiring 

  • Hi Obi H, I know just how you feel.  I am worn out from being positive around friends, family and work colleagues.   I actually want to scream at them.

    A friend who has been through cancer has told me I should say exactly how I feel - something that is definitely easier said than done.

    It really helps if you can talk honestly to just one person as I find talking about things gets it out of my brain amd does give me.peace,.if only for a short while.

    This is the 1st time I've posted anything on here but, from what I've read, this is a great place to say what you feel and get some amazing support from others who understand what you are going through.

  • Can completely relate too - trying not to panic but literally feel I’m about to have a complete breakdown (really want a huge cry but can’t seem to be by myself for more than 5 seconds!)

    all of my family and friends just keep saying is that they’ll just cut it out and then all will be okay - no one seems to grasp how serious this could be!

    a 5 weeks wait for biopsy results so far (following the consultant telling me my mole was melanoma when it was removed) isn’t helping

    its just exhausting isn’t it? Sending you a big hug xxx

  • Thanks for the reply 

    it’s exhausting trying to keep positive with others when you don’t feel like it x

  • Thanks for the reply x trying not to panic x thanks for the advice too 

  • Mines melanoma also had WLE Tuesday x hoping margins are clear now xxx wishing you good luck and a great outcome x let’s hope x

  • Yep, I remember this as well. You are doing a wonderful thing, but it is helpful if you can find someone to offload to as well, perhaps posting here is enough, it was for me. Having been on both sides, I like to think that people try to be positive because they think that is helpful and they will be hiding some worry as well. The problem is that positive comments can seem to lack empathy. 

    In addition, I don't think everyone realises melanoma is a cancer, let alone a bad one. I certainly didn't when I was diagnosed, I remember asking if it was basal cell or squamous cell as they were the only two I knew, the consultant and nurse then explained.