Welcome sweetheart...i can tell ur head is whirling...i know its all very confusing and scary.

My grade was high like yours, grade 4 aggressive. I was told all was removed. I was told the grading was the chances of it coming back. And if it did it could be more aggressive. 

I think because u are going to be seen in 6 months instead of 3 is a hopeful sign 

Have u seen an oncologist yet. 

Now whether its ur renal doctor or oncologist team u will have been given a phone number of your team of nurses. Give them a ring, explain your concerns. It is usually an answer machine, and with the strikes it may take a day or two to get back to you.

In the mean time...DONT READ ANYTHING ON THE INTERNET THAT ISNT FROM A GOOD SOURCE IE MACMILLAN OR CANCER UK...i say this because most of stuff is either from abroad or just rubbish..I learnt the hard way.

I know ur very scared, but settle for a moment...your cancer is not aggressive,  just the grade number is aggressive...your nursing team will set ur mind and explain better. 

Take your time to settle to relax for christmas...all of us on here get these awful anxiety feeling, every time it's scan time....

Mine are due January,  I am anxious,  mind whirring, but I won't allow it to spoil christmas 

I say again, 1st port of call is that one to your nursing team. If not available speak to Macmillan, they are very caring.

Sending u huge hugs and much love

Fleabane's words are words of wisdom. Don't scare yourselves silly trying to make sense of Google or Duckduck or Safari etc . Most of the advice for cancer is outdated and irrelevant to you and will set you backwards on your journey.

Sure, seek definitions of an unfamiliar word or procedure but that's actually useful..

Google and friends are the worst doctors in the world., never trust them. 

Yes, I believe Fleabane summed up nicely and if course you mustn't let stupid cancer spoil your Christmas. It's just a small part of the bigger you. Right? 

Bert

Thank you so much  will keep updated 

Thank you