Hi. I am new on here - and I genuinely never thought I would need to be on here.
In short - last October, after an incidental find, my husband was diagnosed with Stage 4 Kidney Cancer. He has a 13cm tumour on his left kidney which has spread to his lungs and his liver. He had just turned 50. He had (and still has) no symptoms which blows my mind.
To say our lives have changed forever is an understatement, and I'll never forget the shock and disbelief when we were told the news. We are such positive people and have a large network of wonderfully supportive family and friends so we have cracked on and accepted our lives will never be the same and embraced the suggested treatment plan with the amazing team at Addenbrookes. We've basically carried on living our life as before with this just silently lurking in the background.
We have had a setback now, as after 3 months of immunotherapy, we have been told that there is tumour growth and more have appeared in the lungs and liver and we're finding it hard to pick ourselves back up again. Its silly really - its not like we've been told there is nothing more they can do. They are happy to continue the immunotherapy a little longer and if it still doesn't work he will go on to tablet therapy. So there are options. But still we feel we need to pull ourselves out of our current scared and fearful state of minds.
So - we feel we need to reach out to people who know how we are feeling. We think we've come to that time where we need some extra support.
For me personally, he is my soul mate. We found each other 13 years ago and I never want to live my life without him. And I don't want him to feel scared.
I don't know who is out there or who will read this, but feel free to share your thoughts and feelings 
