Weeks ago I was wondering around working talking rubbish with pals .
waiting for the football season to kick off enjoying family and work time .
then bang scan phone call hated words we found something .
booked in for bloods CT scan and all systems go .
then the camera oh god the bladder camera told I’ve cancer need it out kidney that is .
and someone from the cancer team will be in touch and off ya pop .
now facing losing a kidney on Saturday quick and I’m so lucky but I’m scared confused and nervous.
no idea what I’m in for after this and how can I work self employed .
grateful to the NHS hospital royal free and so on and feel a little bit stupid about being scared .
anyway that’s my hello
