Meltdowns

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Hi all, I've not been on here for a while, but I feel I am really struggling - everything I do seems such a chore, and I end up having a major meltdown. Today I had to drive the car home, where my partner had parked it up. I literally had the biggest meltdown, all because it was a tight squish to get out the space. My partner told me that I was being really silly and childish, which resulted in an argument. My anxiety is really high at the moment and I just literally burst into tears. 

I feel like a failure, as I know there are people out there who are suffering more than me. I've recently heard of people passing from this awful disease, and my silly fears seem to be nothing compared to what others are going through. 

Much love to you all, in whatever stage of your journey.

  • Different things affect people in different ways.  Driving out a tricky spot whilst anxious is a high five moment and an opportunity to provide support and encouragement, so well done you!

    Any passenger in a car offering criticism to the driver, should really be making their own way home!

  • Hiya Betsy...I hear you sweety...anxiety and meltdowns are allowed. 

    We are all going through our own personal journey and we all deal with it differently.

    However, if u need medical help for your anxiety reach out to ur medical team or GP. U don't need to suffer. 

    My major failing is the guilt I feel. Having days when i really cannot function, when all around me are carrying on as normal.

    I don't look unwell and I think people forget i have stage 4 cancer.

    I had visitors the other day, we just sat chatting. The next day I was useless for anything. Just so weak. Was told not to let it beat me...wtf...I wasn't..was just exhausted...

    Thankfully, I didn't have i meltdown, I just brooded...

    But today is another day sweety...sending u hugs and love

  • Hi lovely please be kind yourself . Everyone is on their own journey and I know personally at times guilt really gets to me. I literally have guilt about everything. Do you have a maggies centre near you? I honestly can’t recommend them enough. They have been absolutely amazing in providing support to me. For me it feels like a wave building until it’s a massive tsunami that hits me full force and literally knocks me off my feet. I’m getting much better at recognising when that wave is building and will go to maggies to speak to someone. I find it so helpful to speak to someone who isn’t close to me, who I don’t have to worry about upsetting which allows me to be speak honestly and say the things I’m scared to say out loud. They really help me process my thoughts and get back on track. 

    Sending you a massive hug. Just take it one day at at a time. If you wake and it’s a tough day allow yourself to rest or do something that brings your heart joy. Xx

  • Hi

    You are not alone.Everything people said is really helpful .

    If it is getting too much, please go to your GP, phone one of these numbers on this website who will be able to give some solid help.

    8 years ago, I got rid of my 2nd breast, saw someone I love go through awful stuff, went straight to my GP as couldn't cope.its good to talk.

    A problem shared is a problem halved.

    Take care

    Muvva

  • Thank you for the lovely reply. I had a chat with a health professional the other day, who said that I need to see my GP. I have an appointment next week and am going to lay everything out to them. I've been told I may need to see a psychiatrist, just to talk things through. Again my employer has scheduled a meeting to talk about going back to work, which is sending me into sheer panic. Life really isn't great for me at the moment. 

  • All the best with that.These conversations are the few steps going up, back to yourself.

    I highly recommend chatting to your GP.I did it myself, I literally offloaded everything.they worked through things bit by bit till I felt me again.

    All the best