I have been diagnosed with throat/neck cancer. I have been told it's treatable. I'm waiting for an MRI a meeting with my specialist and then hopefully treatment. At the moment I am so scared. I suffer with anxiety anyway and have been on medication for several years. I just want to sleep. I drink to cope which is not great but I don't know how else to cope. I can't sleep (even though that's all I want), I can't eat. I feel sick and scared. I called the local mental health line but the person I spoke to sounded more in need of help than me. I just want to talk to people who may understand how I feel; who've either been through what I'm going through or are having a similar experience. I know I should be thankful to be told the things I've been told but I can't rationalise and always think the worst.
Share the Masterchef thing Hazel, always loved it and it was something me and my wife watched together and I felt no reason to stop even though food was just a chore for so long.
Still watch it, in the middle of a "professionals" series just now, but I miss arguing with Deb about who should go through 
Metastatic SCC diagnosed 8th October 2013. Modified radical neck dissection November, thirty-five radiotherapy fractions with 2xCisplatin chemo Jan/Feb 2014. Recurrence on larynx diagnosed July 2020 so salvage laryngectomy in September 2020.
Was the last week of heats last week Hazel, very strong group with a young Portuguese lad looking a serious contender for me.
Debbie always went on character rather than skill, if she liked someone they could serve beans on toast and she's be affrinted if they got knocked out, was very funny.
Apologie for taking the thread off on a tangent.
Metastatic SCC diagnosed 8th October 2013. Modified radical neck dissection November, thirty-five radiotherapy fractions with 2xCisplatin chemo Jan/Feb 2014. Recurrence on larynx diagnosed July 2020 so salvage laryngectomy in September 2020.
Hope lord of the rings takes you away. You’ll be home soon and on the way to getting better. Take all the pills they give you.
Hold onto that cure. It’s only weeks away.
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
