I have been diagnosed with throat/neck cancer. I have been told it's treatable. I'm waiting for an MRI a meeting with my specialist and then hopefully treatment. At the moment I am so scared. I suffer with anxiety anyway and have been on medication for several years. I just want to sleep. I drink to cope which is not great but I don't know how else to cope. I can't sleep (even though that's all I want), I can't eat. I feel sick and scared. I called the local mental health line but the person I spoke to sounded more in need of help than me. I just want to talk to people who may understand how I feel; who've either been through what I'm going through or are having a similar experience. I know I should be thankful to be told the things I've been told but I can't rationalise and always think the worst.
That’s a good book to listen to. Yes radical means to effect cure rather than palliative to relieve symptoms.
Might I suggest you shave your neck and start moisturising. The likelihood is that the whiskers will drop off( but they will grow back probably)
Keep going.
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
Hi Richy. That’s good we downloaded the entire 8 seasons of game of thrones to pass the time at home ot was so good we watched it twice or maybe watched it twice as too complicated ! Yes your s member of the radioactive club now.
Hazel x
Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz
My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now 6 years post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help
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Were you able to watch TV? I find it difficult to concentrate as my mind just plays the same messages about despair and worry etc. The reason I downloaded the audiobook was because I knew I wouldn't be able to focus on reading.
RichyDee
Hi I couldn’t read knit crochet or garden fir at least 5 months but could watch crappy tv. Couldn’t watch anything that needed concentration hence the game if thrones rewatch a year later. Watched lots of master chefs didn’t need to think plus macabre I liked watching food especially when I couldn’t eat it !!!
Hazel
Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz
My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now 6 years post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help
2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers
And yet books were my escape. I devoured them. It took me away from the world.
Dani
Base of tongue cancer. T2N0M0 6 weeks Radiotherapy finished January 2019
I adore reading thankfully it came back but no way could I read . So strange how we are all different yet the same!
H x
Hazel aka RadioactiveRaz
My blog is www.radioactiveraz.wordpress.com HPV 16+ tonsil cancer Now 6 years post treatment. 35 radiotherapy 2 chemo T2N2NM.Happily getting on with living always happy to help
2 videos I’ve been involved with raising awareness of HNC and HPV cancers
Hi Richy,
glad today ok. Hope you remembered to get your free parking ticket from reception.
Unless they've changed since April you need to take same covid form each day so they just record your temperature. You also don't need to check in at reception, just turn left and go to Snowdrop. Once chemo done let Snowdrop reception know and they'll check you in for radiotherapy then head round to the linacs.
I read during treatment, took a kindle loaded with different options. It was in the weeks post treatment I couldn't read. Also loaded some mindless games onto phone for when I struggled to concentrate. On chemo days I'd recline the seat and snooze- couldn't the first week but once the beeps all became background it was fine. Ask them for a blanket to make it cosy!
Back at home went through the old films and streamed box sets.
If its chilly tomorrow wear some gloves to keep your hands warm. They will give you a hand warmer too, but helps them get a vein. Mine were a pain and hid, but they managed each week.
Take care tomorrow, Gill
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