Hello every one!
I’ve been reading through this all night and it’s been great to hear about other folk in the same boat! I’m just here to introduce myself as a new member of the forum and share my story of the past year - sorry if this rambles or breaks rules.
I was diagnosed with Barrats Oesophagus in March of last year after decades of chronic acid reflux. Being 30, they told me this could eventually develop into cancer as my cells had mutated past the point of no return; the next appointment they checked three months later they found I had an early stage tumour on my lower esophagus. This was a shock to everyone as I was quite young and active. I had lost 4 stone and kept vomiting but otherwise I didn’t have the worst symptoms you hear of and I have always thrown up a lot. We were hopeful they would be able to remove it via an EMR. Sadly, the tumour was too far advanced and too inconveniently placed on my lower esophagus so it was decided that an esophagectomy would be the best route after 8 weeks of chemo.
The chemo itself was a tale of two half’s. I feel blessed to have youth on my side, and no doubt this saved me from some of the horror stories I’ve heard; but starting from the third dose I stated to really feel it, getting an eye and ear infection and losing all the hair on my body. The amazing thing was how repetitive the chemo was. I could time my symptoms down to the hour and day, but the intensity of these symptoms do get worse as time gets on. Not being able to handle cold items, the struggling to swallow, the constant diarrhoea, to name a few. The PICC line is horrible. I continued to work out during this - I would advise if anyone does this to use common sense and take things slow.
After a 5 week break I went in for my Ivor Lewis on December 15th. I‘m fortunate to have a friend who is really into fitness, so I managed to put on 9kg pre surgery with a lot of it being muscle, something I’m confident has had a positive effect on my post surgery outlook. Sadly I’ve lost 13kg since surgery, and my muscles have deteriorated. But getting in shape would be my biggest piece of advise if I could give it to someone with this or any huge surgery coming up - if health permits.
Surgery was hard but I managed to keep a positive mindset through it, knowing that it would hopefully only be temporary. The three chest drains were the worst thing I’ve ever experienced though. Sadly due to complications I ended up with a paraconduit hernia, which required a second surgery the following week. Sadly this couldn’t be done keyhole, so they had to open me up again - which sucks haha!
All in though I was out the hospital in 16 days, which I’ve been told Is good for these surgeries. I have a brilliant consultant, nursing team and the high dependency unit team were A*, so I think it went as well as it could. It was an incredibly challenging 2 weeks but I handled it better than I thought I would and I think your brain just adapts. I’d recommend enquiring about the chest drains if you’re having this surgery, because I hadn’t anticipated how hard that aspect would be.
Now that I’m home, though, I feel like I’m starting to struggle. Physically, I constantly feel like I have something stuck in my throat, yet there has been no problem drinking, eating soup (liquid diet still) or taking medication. The worst of all is the continued retching, where I’m dry heaving for forty minutes at a time. It’s just saliva as well. This feels horrific and it’s not helped by the rib pain. But I’m relieved to read others have this too and it may just be part of the recovery process. I’ll ask my consultant when I see him.
Mentally, I feel like I’m starting to crack too. Since diagnosis we all looked at this from a place of pragmatism, because I’m aware that the chances of being so young and having your cancer caught is slim - and it has probably saved my life. “It’ll be a tough couple of years” was the mindset, but now that I’m out, I feel like my mental side is really starting to slide. But now I’m starting to get incredibly snippy with friends and family, and are constantly angry. I feel a lot of pity for myself - something I try not to do too much - and I’m very bitter about stuff; not just the cancer, but silly things. I try not to be a jealous person but I’ve started to feel a bit angry.
I’m also moving onto “sloppy” food this weekend - does anyone have any recommendations for something tasty? I’m starting small and easy to avoid dumping however I’m aware that’s almost certain.
That said - having found this forum has been really good. It s nice (as nice as can be) to know others are in the same boat. I’m going to no doubt pop up in the future so I hope this wasn’t too indulgent and I hope everyone is ready to try and feel just a bit better today!
I’m sorry things are so difficult for you at the moment. My husband had surgery in April but at 69, somewhat older. Help with fitness pre op made a huge difference to his recovery as FLOT chemo had made so ill he was admitted with sepsis. No post op chemo because of this and it had had little effect on the cancer. Recovery has been relatively good compared to many so we are grateful for that at least but post op histology showed more local spread than scans had shown so the fear of recurrence is there all the time. Chris also has had episodes of dry retching which make him feel exhausted and unwell but these are reducing in frequency. I assume you are following all the guidelines around sleeping and diet?
I think you must contact your upper GI nurses to investigate the stuck feeling ….. many people need a dilation at least once sometimes more as scar tissue etc can form.
Mentally, please reach out for counselling …… life must feel totally unfair for this to happen to you so young. Please see your GP about this and also reach out to MacMillan for support and signposting.
I wish I could be more help but send you the best of wishes.
Geraldine xx
One other suggestion to get more calories on board. Chris can’t take any of the shakes, juices etc prescribed by dieticians they are way too high in sugar. He uses HUEL meal replacement drink in theornings as it’s low in sugar. He’s developed a routing of drinking part of a bottle slowly when he gets up and the rest about 45 mins later. Breakfast later again and late morning he can manage his beloved coffee with some sugar. Sugar early in the day is a no no! One month on is very early days and things will get better
G
Hi iam 13yrs post op I was a textbook case 3wks hospital, 4wks home and gradually back to work as landscape Gardner over 5yrs found it too much so retired then had a second surgery because of a twisted gut and duedenom still now keeping active and keep going back to hospital for something not right I still eat small meals proper foods not soft,my advice for you is start your day with toast and butter and a drink after 2 hrs later cake or biscuits then a quarter of what you used to eat and so on stop eating 7pm and stop being angry cancer is a wake up call now you have to stand up to it with your bravest face on x
I needed to hear this, I am angry and need to knock that on the head. I’ve just finished chemo/radio 5 weeks, let everything settle down and then surgery. I’m a Gardner (not a landscaper). I miss being outside.
Right sash start by going outside for a couple of short walks and get your energy levels back, then after a month start pushing yourself two hours gardening and rest and having easy snacks to hand and build up if you feel it’s too much stop it’s a trial, you will only get dumping syndrome if eat too much if so a couple of sweet biscuits it will go if you would like more info don’t hesitate iam not a councillor but I do have first hand knowledge x
Thanks so much. I’ve read so much about dumping syndrome, it terrified me. Baby steps! How long after surgery did you start to feel better? I am a throat cancer survivor (15yrs), so this is a new cancer for me. I must not be angry I must not be angry x
Hi sash probably about a year what I will say is don’t try too much if you do you may lose weight and you can’t put it on so weigh yourself every two weeks to see what exercise does to you I weigh 85kg this fluctuates,if you get dumping syndrome you’re blood pressure goes down and you usually get hot and sweaty so relax lay on your back with your legs up it goes off after about 15-30 mins don’t panic as I did the first time eat enough but not too much eat sweet biscuits or hi juice. One last thing because you have had a big shake up by your surgery you will get diarrhoea for approximately 6 months when you’re not expecting it yuk otherwise take it steady and talk to people let them know how you feel x
thanks dods, sash and the others, the anger is a real debbie downer, the dumping does ease, its definately down to user error, couple of after eights xmas last year, holy crap, big learning curve, really helpful to read everyones advice and experience, with this little shite, you never stop learning, no handbook i was told but by christ this forum is the nearest thing,
thank you all
It sounds like it’s the gift that keeps on giving. Bring it on. Thank you x
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