Today I visited my local hospice for the first time as a terminal oesophagus cancer with secondary liver patient to discuss my palative care, my head has been spinning since being told no treatment is available and my life expectancy is 6-12 months on the 19 th December 2019, the time fly's and I was counting the days that have never gone so fast and the closer I get to that first number 6 the more I was confused why I am not being given a chance to fight to live.
The hospice is more than I could have hoped for, the kindness and understanding is just what I needed as a person with no family and living alone - I am no longer alone I feel I have been taken into a family I am being included in groups doing things I will enjoy and being shown how to cope with my terminal diagnosis, I will be at the hospice 2 - 3 days per week one day doing tie chee ( bet that's spelt wrong ) another's learning mind relaxing/ control and other options for groups that will help me accept the inevitable..
I will sleep better tonight knowing I am no longer alone, support and understanding is there in person or on the end of a phone, I see life ahead not worry and stress.
Chuddy
