First chemo with Capox

I didn’t have capox so don’t know I had FLOT but please don’t be scared they have to tell you all the side effects to cover themselves but you may or may not get any, I’m sure there will be someone on here will have had it ! Just take it one day at a time Tricia xx

Thank you, I feel so out of control. Waiting for the treatment is just the worst. 
I am sure when tomorrow comes I’ll be feeling better xx 

Yes the waiting is the worst thing but you will be in safe hands ! Take care Tricia xx

denise, i dont think there is one person that has been or is going through this that will disagree with you about the waiting, the anxiety, the emotional and mental rollercoaster that this awful disease puts you through. 

Its definately a normal reaction, and i was told there is no right or wrong way to deal with it.  i hav my Sarong ct scan wednesday, kept busy at the weekend, but can feel myself picking at silly things, as it looms, more worried about them finding a vein!! but afterwards usually feel the weight off my shoulders when the scans done, but thats just me, i was always a worrier, so this is another level.

wether on the Chemo ward or in the radiotherapy waiting room, thats where we found some of the best advice, new friends, support and help from people just like us that were, and are going through exactly what we were going through.  Just tick each one off as being nearer to the treatment end.  in radiotherapy i remember just saying over and over, zap this little so and so whilst the machine did its job.

Keep chatting to us your new family, there will always some one that has been there, going through it and can give honest advice from what they have been through.

sending hugs

jules

Jules, thank you so much for your lovely reply, The anxiety is pretty horrendous, and had a couple of proper break downs, while waiting for the treatment to start, I just can’t get my head round it. 
Tomorrow is the start of the fight, and like you I was thinking that this treatment is killing all those awful cells and that’s what I will be thinking while it’s being administered. 

Denise x 

I found that a good way to vent a bit and on here to. Think I've cried more the last 18 months than before, melt downs tick, sobbing but not knowing why. It was and still is my new normal. And feel awful to winge when some of this family are no longer with us. But christ the support and ad ice from this forum was amazing. Keep talking to us. And good luck with this journey  xx

Thank you, I have cried daily I think since I was diagnosed, I’ve been such a mess, the GP prescribed medication ( not anti depressants) which are helping a bit, I think tomorrow I will feel better as I am actually doing something to fight this awful disease.