Secondary breast cancee

Dont beat yourself up about being real. On good days you can see yourself living a relatively normal life just needing to have a quick nap or rest before tackling the next job..  but that's the problem not all days are good...as ya get into week 3 or further into cycles, you start to notice not as many good days... then comes the What ifs... my last cycle...they stop my meds... scan shows progression!  We all have those thoughts.  It's hard as people say stupid things!  Oh how well you look, would never thought you still have cancer.  Well ignore the world, you know you need rest an yes have to adapt your life but just do it. Change be more selfish go do what you want.  No ya not going to pop your clogs today but you know if ya get years (an we all hope you do) don't waste the time you have waiting to die.  Enjoy what you can when you can.  Can't run but can walk...take it as time to look at the view instead of running past it.  Breath give yourself time to adjust.

Just got home from having my six month scan.  Now it's the waiting game. TFT you are right in what you say about what goes through your head after a scan .  It's very hard trying to put the bad thoughts out of your head .  It is such a waste of energy having negative  thoughts. Anyway poured myself  a glass of wine and are determined  to enjoy life.   Take care everyone

Thank you TFT. You are so right. Just gotta haul myself out of this dark hole to appreciate the light in my life. I’ll be fine. Going a away with a friend for a few days so that will help.

Jac x