just diagnosed and so scared

You can only be yourself babe...we love who you are, for better or worse. We bare it all here. I don't even talk boobies to my close friends. So see how important you all are?!?!?! Love to u all girlies

Cx 

Shazzer ..there is a lot of truth in being vulnerable and underlying that is true strength. People who don't confront weakness will never know what it's like to overcome things...once overcome you then go from strength to strength

Hope you're OK? When is your next bout?

Am just trying to keep busy till next Tues. Going for bloods and hair cut tomorrow. Just want to look presentable

C x

My next treatment is the 12th November. Yh I am over come weaknesses, my biggest one was my symptoms started 4 days after my dad passed. To say I felt like a bullet was put through me is an understatement, my mom grieving with the loss of my dad her partner for over 60 yrs. And I tumbled I tumbled really low. Low enough to have my coat on and open the door to walk from my world my son. My one sister held me and said give yourself a chance sis, she was trembling with pain for me and full of grief for my dad. Then my weaknesses started turning to strengths. I have not always been strong, but I look at photo's of my dad and gain strength  its hard but I take one day at a time xxx

Hi all 

Hope you had a good day what ever you been upto.

Seen a few worries about hair loss, if anyone is near huddersfield theres a really fantastic shop that does wigs I can get the name for anyone interested but there pretty expensive apparently.

I was given my wig voucher yesterday hope the cold cap will work and I wont need it!! 2nd was the pic line and more books and papers to read.

Need a filing cabinet at this rate

I had an early start today for an echo scan and a pic line dressing change had to have a nap this afternoon.

Sat in the chemo suite today for 5 mins when I realised this is life now from Tuesday for the next 3 to 4 months 

Nearly had a wobble on the way home but managed to subside the feelings 

From a scared Yorkshire lass trying to stay positive 

Oh sweetheart. (((Big hugs)))

Your sis is a gem, she has such broad shoulders and you can lean on that for sure. Sorry and condolences on your Dad. It's so hard isn't it...for u to process your situation and to also be strong for your family...now you look back...you ought to be proud to overcome you low. Acknowledged it, coming to terms with it all would not have been easy. Nevertheless you made it....I am proud of you. That you chose the brighter path...honestly keep riding on the love of your sis and your son. In time your mum will be able to also support you when the initial loneliness and shock of losing her spouse passes..she too is fight for her strength.

You prob are strong because the women in your family are! I too look at my dad's photo...and feel him fighting this with me. Even though its over 20 yrs ago when he left us, I can remember his mannerisms and smell of old spice and brylcream so clearly!!

One day at a time...step by step...we believe in you!

C x

Thank you Claud, you truly speak such lovely words. I am proud to overcome my low. Yh one day at a time. The support on here is amazing and we all will do this together step by step xxxxx

By the way, I wouldn't worry about your husband's reaction. He did your injections, so that really shows he's on your side and he must know the effects of chemo. Not an easy task, giving injections. He wants you better, we all want you better, he won't mind what you look like as long as you get better and get better you will in the long run. Dexter won't want to miss his walkies either, and that will do you both good. No-one who you don't tell will have a clue. Anyway, people are so busy running their own lives they prob. won't even notice, though of course you imagine they will do. Doesn't matter what anyone else thinks anyway, only your immediate loved ones, and YOU.

  For all of us xxx

Love that so true xxxx