just diagnosed and so scared

Hi Diana,  hope you are keeping well, I'm awake again 3am!  My Seromas gone now I didn't have mine drained they gave me no encouragement to do that at the time I wish I had  pushed a bit more.  The cording not too bad now almost resolved. It's my scar and tight chest that is causing me the most pain. 

I getting so worried about all the toxicity of this chemotherapy I'm going to have to chat to them at next clinic appointment. I want antibiotics to keep at home just in case worried to death about sepsis. The hospitals are overwhelmed with all this covid I can't see how I would be treated within the hour  if I had an infection as the protocol suggests? It just won't happen. You are so right after the next one half way through. It's a difficult time for all of us 

Take care 

Jayne X 

Hi 

You're not alone here...me too!

May I ask did you have your op before starting chemo?

I am having two minds now...initially was meant to start chemo but two nights ago I could feel the lump shift. So I just want the lump out out now. The fear is really eating away at me. And I feel I can better cope if its out of my body!

How you feeling now...? Sepsis is so bl00dy worrying, not like you need more on your plate! I feel so much for you with the sleepless nights too. Hope u aren't in pain?

C x

Hi Claud, yes op before starting 9 weeks recovery and now chemotherapy which is starting to worry me.. when r u back at the hospital?  Not in pain tonight just need to get back in a more regular pattern of sleep. Yesterday was a very good day the strongest I have felt for 7 days 

Jayne X 

Hey  such a rollercoaster ride huh?

Did you have mastectomy...I am wondering how I will cope afterwards with the new me!

I have asked to see my breast consultant next week again to work the brain fog out for what I should do next! Had chemo lined up but have had a change of heart to go with op first now! It's all so confusing and impacting my sleep due to decision making!

Remember you are doing so well, and feeling so positive...you can beat this hands down. So happy you're having a good/strong day! Keep doing what you're doing...as its clearly working!

C x

Hi Mel , glad it all went well .  I’m sure they are just taking precautions with the scan .  At least it is now out of your body . Xxx

Feel dreadful today , not coping with it as can’t do much feel sick, with no energy, hate it .  Hope it doesn’t get worse

Oh Harleybear I'm sorry to hear you feel unwell. We have a 24 treatment line we must ring if sickness tables not working. Do you have that?  

Jayne X 

Hi harleybearcwhat day is this for you, have you anymore meds. Before your first treatment was you given an extra strong anti sickness tablet to take xxx

Are you drinking loads to flush it through your system  I am forcing myself to drink loads and loads xxx

Yes , have a number I can ring , haven’t really needed the tablets until now . Worried about my partner as he having to do everything and he is the one who has the health problems , don’t know how we gonna cope really .  Xxx