just diagnosed and so scared

Thanks Harleybear I'm ok let's hope it goes ok x 

Hey I have just read a letter that oncology just e mailed to me . It says 3 cycles of EC chemo and four cycles of TC chemo . Does anyone know what that is . It also says possible lymph node invasion .  I am terrified again now , I think it has spread then xx

Well funny you got this today I have some news EC is what I'm having it's an old  Chemo drug been around for years and very safe and effective. That's what pharmacy told me yesterday. And my friend who had Breast cancer 20 years ago called in today and I was chatting to her about lymph nodes she is head nurse of medical specialists.      ( the old matron) she said lymph nodes are on a chain , I knew that but she says the chain is often 15 nodes in length so if it's only affecting a few 3 or four for example it hasn't travelled up and out of the chain . Well I didn't know that! I had an infected node and she had 3 ! She is doing great 

Thanks , it also says something about ki67 30% . Which reading means that is how they grade it > 20%. It is grade 3 so I suppose that means mine is bad.   Why didn’t I find it earlier , it is huge so it must have been there ages .  I am really worried now , not allowed myself to think that I won’t make it . But now ...   well maybe I won’t .  So if so I don’t want to spend what I have left feeling rubbish .  This thing is staying inside me no chance of getting  it out for months .   Can’t do it . Xx

I’m not quite sure whether I’m going through just the same journey as yours but I’m sure you’ll get through and be fine 

don’t despair

Never lose faith in your doctors and treatment 

try to live day by dai and appreciate the good things and people that surround you

my best best wishes 

Hi thanks , it is so hard sometimes.   I feel like the unluckiest person ever . I have had a horrible 18months and this has just about floored me . I sometimes don’t even quite believe it .  It still feels like this is all my fault for thinking the unthinkable in some really dark moments .  Xx

Harleybear , You can do it when is chemo starting it will shrink down very quickly once our new friend EC has gets a hold of it .  

Jayne X 

Rhiwbina

Let me give u the biggest virtual hug firstly!! Of coz it's very scary but remember the chemo is going to fight the cancer. So it's your comrade to help you fight your enemy. 

Will be thinking of you tomorrow. I may have this either next week or week after. So not far behind. By then you will probably tell me all the brave things you have done, together we will pull each other through! I truly believe...keep calm best you can

Sending you lots of love, healing vibes

C x 

Thankyou Claud 272 chatting tonight had made me feel a bit better .oh it's all ups and downs isn't it x