I’m having my results today, but I’m too scared to go

Lovely lady its normal to be scared , its normal to cry . This new chapter in our life not always clear. We waiting and waiting , results scan surgery chemo. No matter what stage or grade you in good hands . Your treatment plan will be done especially for you. I went with my husband for last two appointments and its much better than to go alone. You not alone in this group we all the same, be strong and take it day by day one step at the time. Let me know how it went your appointment, remember you not alone xxxZana

How you are feeling is perfectly normal in this situation. We have all been there and you are certainly not a cry baby.You have only had a very short time to get used to the diagnosis & it is an enormous shock that is only understood by those who have been there.  And the wish to go back to our pre-cancer life is what we all want. I have had surgery and am a week away from my last chemo but I still wish it was all wiped out & I was back living my life pre-cancer. 
You may not see it now - I didn’t believe it! - but the waiting really is the worst time. Your team will put together a treatment plan that is tailored totally to your diagnosis - do not compare yourself to anyone else - and once it starts you will eventually start to feel better and look forward to the end of treatment. And remember that breast cancer is very treatable nowadays. You will certainly not need to go back to the ‘no hope’ thinking. 
Goid luck with your results and your treatment 

PatsyP2 You make me happy too with your positive spirits!  

LHS

It's so normal to be scared I was the same when I went for my first results but to be honest the nurses there are so professional and kind they explain everything to you and make you feel so much better. I had a lumpectomy last week and go back for my results next week so I have got to go through it all again. The possitive I get from it all is that I know people that have had bc and they have come through it. Keep in touch. Xx

Thank you Zana for such a lovely text. I cannot believe this , I am on a high. It is only grade 2! It has invaded the lymph measurements 68mm so further CT tomorrow. I now fear that my results will come back as secondary as I feel too lucky. So may be close to the floor again when I get those results. Starting chemo within the next two weeks. This is moving very fast, but I prefer that than fannying around. I enjoyed going for a night out with my husband tonight lol but yes definitely better to go with company xxx

Thank you for writing to me, you are completely right, the waiting is the worse. Ct booked for tomorrow so just have that hurdle to get through. Chemo to commence in the next two weeks xx

Thank you, I’ll cross my fingers for a good result for you. I draw so much strength from this forum. Update with a result? Xx

 glad you had good news & hopefully so will you Talbot. (are your from Port Talbot?).  

I still remember the waiting for my lumpectomy results back in July 2016 !! My BCN was on leave but the lovely person she was she asked her colleague to contact me if my results came back so at 4pm on a Friday evening she rang me with the results so I could have a good weekend!  I had clear margins so onto radiotherapy     

3 years later I had a biopsy on other breast at annual checkup .  Biopsy Monday told is have phone call Friday .  By 3pm no call so I rang.  Casually told biopsy fine but they hadn't rung because they were trying to get another appointment for me to repeat mammogram to be certain.  Clearly this person never encountered the waiting for results!  

That is great news LHS. Please keep us posted. We are all here with you and thinking of you. Everything crossed for you. Xx

Thank you. Carol, I want to be like you being able to sign off as NEDDY  xx