Surgery Saturday being a wuss...

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Hello ladies

i have surgery booked for Saturday morning and despite being a normally very pragmatic and independent person I’m sad, angry, lonely and feel out of control. It’s kind of like claustrophobia panic so I’m just venting on here...I hope everyone is okay with that! I have two kids at home so putting on a jolly facade, they are off to their dads with my doggo on Friday night and I’m dreading it. I think it’ll be a restless night and I feel pathetic to be honest. 
I know I have to have the surgery done, my surgeon is lovely and I trust him I’m just being totally wussy and freaking out about all sorts of nonsense. I guess it’s normal....maybe?!?!

i had Pre op yesterday..I’m at a specialist cancer hospital so v lucky but having been there with mum and ex as support person in the past it was a real reality check yesterday and I had a minor meltdown with the Macmillan nurse. I feel embarrassed as I’m hoping I have caught this early and so I feel I maybe fussing over nothing. Every creak, ache, cough etc is now attributed to cancer. I assume this gets more manageable the more you get to know and the further on you are with a treatment plan. I realise I’m at the start of the journey and it’s bound to be scary. I was thinking treat this like a spa break, imagine it’s a plastic surgery, it’s small operation and it will be fine. A lady on here said she had taken her cancer time to reflect and relax etc and I love that mindset... just battling to get to it   Anyway I’m rambling utter nonsense, I bloody hate NYE at best of times but I hope those of you who love it have a great evening at home bye for now xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    That’s very kind and thank you very much. I hope you get news soon, they will have to change surgeons to meet the deadline and get on with it. I’m sure it won’t be much longer. Talk soon xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to HappyFeet1
    1. I like the thought of being a weirdo who likes anaesthetics. I will harness that thought and take it with me tomo!!  I don’t know how to undo bullets... sorry!!
    2. thanks so much for thinking of me and will deffo take your weirdness with me xx
    3. will let you all know ASAP xx
  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Desperate to know how you are and how you got on? You're probably not feeling up to typing at the moment, but was thinking of you all day! Hope you're now over the first hurdle! x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hello rebbles and ladies xx

    sorry I’ve taken so long been a busy blurry day. I feel so much better, thank you all so much for your love and support 

    took a bit longer than they thought but was first in so that was good. Now got a v wonky and very bright blue left boob lol. Least oif any worries!

    I stayed here as no one at home so officially now on drugs aided spa break. Still looking for jacuzzi...

    im going make a suggestion that Pre med calm the bloody hell down drugs. Should deffo be administered to all ladies on diagnosis and until any surgery. Damn fine idea!! My best yet

    so in summary... I feel more like me.. feisty, Micky taking ginger, stoical and going to beat this little bugger!! Next round of waiting now as half my small boob parties in a path lab with its lymph buddies

    thank you from bottom of my heart

    HF... not quite managed to reach your heights of anaesthesia weirdness but deffo advocate of the Pre med wonder drug. It should be on Amazon IMO

    Much love

    xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Rebbles.... I’m in the northwest!!!!! Where are you?? I’m Sandbach in Cheshire.... yay. You’re local yay xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I'm in Lancaster, knew you were a northerner! lol

    So glad you are through the other side and lol, those drugs do seem to be working! Keep it up and I hope you find the jacuzzi!

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Lancaster is north west?? Bloody hell. I got stranded there once when floods stopped trains... I know the taxi rank in middle of town. In fact been stranded there twice via trains. Hired a car second time

    used to go by a lot as head office in glasgae and just bought my puppy from Kirkby Stephen. Often passing hen... we can do beers and I can get stranded again as soon as this big c and the other big c are over!!!

    pisi pants babes

    hahaha I left that as it made me laugh... Posi

    xxxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Definately when this covid is over, I'm near the train station so next time you're stranded, there will be beers at the nearest pub! (no jacuzzi's though)!

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hi

    your words helping me, I’m a nurse yet diagnosed stage 2 ductal breast cancer 23rd December, surgery booked for 18th January, I’m terrified have a supportive husband yet can’t find the words to tell our 14 year old daughter! Need to isolate after tomorrow so will need to tell her quickly!

    pleased your surgery over with but imagine you won’t settle until lab results and definite plan in place, surgeon said I’ll need radiotherapy after wide local excision usually 15 fractions over 3 weeks yet due to Covid some patients being offered 1 week of treatment, I’m terrified surgery might be cancelled if Covid figures increase further and terrified I’m not offered most curative plan. Like you...... normally I’m a level headed easy going individual but feel I’m losing control of everything at the moment 

    xx

  • Hi , yay it’s out! So glad you’re done and dusted, enjoy your spa experience and keep the drugs topped up while you need them! Sweet dreams! HFxx

    HappyFeet1 xx
    Don’t be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts. – Hopi