Feeling anxious after surgery

Hello TP5

your situation is similar to mine, but I had a lumpectomy and lymph nodes removed. I also had a seroma, and very uncomfortable they are, especially in this hot weather. I had it drained weekly for 4 weeks, until I was given antibiotics and that’s when it started to go down. I also read that there was massage available to help with the drainage, by pinching the inside of the elbow on the affected arm. I don’t know if it worked, or whether it was the antibiotics, but it has reduced and is almost gone. 
Like you, I too am fearful of the next steps, it’s only natural to be anxious. I expect, like me, you are not sleeping very well. Again this is all very understandable. My husband has a nervous breakdown 2 years ago and my doctor gave me some antidepressants (sertraline) only a small dose, but helps to take the edge off when I become overwhelmed. That might help you too? I am now 77 years old and was completely drug free 2 years ago, but things change. I am sorry that you are feeling so low, reach out to me if you wish, we are both going through some tough times. 
Bw

Thank you so much for replying. Sorry to hear that you are anxious as well, it feels like I have absolutely no control over my life at all, and I agree with you, not sleeping makes it worse.  Hopefully they will give me some advice on the seroma on Tuesday and I find out more about next steps. Hope you find out your next steps soon x