New Triple Negative diagnosis & lymph node worries

Hello all,

I was only here a week or so ago worrying about results and here we are, what I thought would happen, happened. And now I'm worried about the diagnosis.

I'm 33 yo and have just been diagnosed with grade 3 triple negative breast cancer. I have a 2cm lump in the upper outer quadrant, an abnormal lymph node and another lesion around 9mm they have found on the front of my breast and will be examining in an upcoming MRI and CT scan. 

Wow, even writing all that was tough and just made this even more real, not the fever dream I wish it was...

I'm yo-yoing between seemingly fine and spiralling out of control. I've googled something just twice (once about losing weight and hair in chemo and once about treating lymph node cancer) and both times sent me into a sobbing meltdown.

The lymph node scares me the most, I have some stories close to home that were not positive. Everyone tells me this is my own story, but with that, I feel so alone. I just wanted to see if there were any other ladies in my position and to put some feelers out there for positivity and support at what I think is the scariest period of my life so far.

To anyone in similar shoes, I'm here if you want to chat and feel less alone, too. I struggle with positivity, but have been off anti depressants for around two years since my post natal depression. I can feel all those sad thoughts and days creeping back in but I'm trying to be strong. There are just so many unknowns x