I’m 45 year old, mother of 2; diagnosed on 4th January with ILC oestrogen and progesterone positive, her2 negative cancer. I had lumpectomy surgery and lymph node removal 31st January, waiting in my results. Is it weird to feel nothing and then totally overwhelmed in the same day. I can’t look in the mirror yet to see the difference in my boobs and I’m scarred of my follow up on Wednesday, probably because that’s when I’ll know the next steps of this journey. i think I need to hear that I’m not alone, but also that this doesn’t mean I can’t live a long time.
Hi Flutterby yes, I have to say, I think you're feeling absolutely the same as many of us do. During my treatment I went from forgetting about it completely to feeling obsessive about searching the internet (which by the way I do not recommend). Our emotions are understandably all over the place and the most difficult times for me was when I was waiting for next steps, just like you are now. Keeping busy really helped distract me by the way.
I'm now 2 years since diagnosis, working full time in a busy global job with lots of travel and a managing well. My lumpectomy boob looks different yes, it with a bra on, you could never tell. Best wishes for your follow up on Wednesday.
