Just diagnosed with bc

Hi Sarah, sorry to hear of your diagnosis. The waiting for results is the hardest part I found on this journey. It does seem like a long time but once tests are done and the medical team have the full picture things seem to move quicker. I understand about the fear of spreading. I didn’t have any scans until I visited my oncologist. You can read my journey so far if you click on my name. Try to avoid googling things, the info can be out of date. Once I knew what my full diagnosis was then if I googled I stuck with the Macmillan or Cancer Research sites. Your breast care nurse will be able to help too. The Macmillan nurse on the webchat are here to help too. Chatting on the forums is another great way to get support and advice as we are all at different stages of our journeys. 
Wishing you good luck for tomorrow and all the best of your journey.

Hugs from cuffcake x x x x x

This site is so informative, crucial on this journey. I haven't had a scan yet. Surgery 6 th Dec, results 6 th Jan. I have grade 2 and stage 2. It was in 1 of the lymph nodes as well as breast. Meeting the oncologist on 31 St Jan when Oncotype DX result is back. Hope for the best as always, trying to keep the spirits up by whatever healthy means. I used to like having a glass or 2 of wine. I think of it as poison now. I still have a small glass occasionally. Hug for you for tomorrow. How I feel is that at least it is treatable. Xx

Hello I've just been reading your journey . What a strong lady you are . Big hugs to you

Hi Sarah, I’m not really that strong. I do try to stay my bubbly self (as my mum used to say) but there are times when I find it difficult. There are up and down days. On down days I try to think of happy things to get myself back on track. Even now I still watch my favourite Christmas movie as it really boosts my mood even though Christmas has gone for now but that’s what make me happy. If there’s something you enjoy and makes you happy go for it even if it an odd thing like mine. Again it can be hard but staying positive and happy can help so much . 
Wishing you all the best.

Hugs from cuffcake x x x x x

Hi Sabrina22, sorry to hear of your diagnosis. Yes keep those spirits up . Thank you for your hug for tomorrow, I have my 4th chemo session. Not sure but think maybe you were replying to SJTay but it came to me.  I had a positive sentinel node and then had to have additional surgery to remove the axillary ones. 9 out of 12 were positive but luckily all have gone and my PET CT scan was clear. 
Good luck for your meeting with your oncologist on 31st, hope all goes well and you are able to get your plan of treatment underway.

Hugs from cuffcake x x x x x

Thank you, I think if the message applies to you, it's good to respond. It's all the uncertainty and life on hold I find difficult. Today I went to the gym for the first time in 2 mths, in a mask. It felt good to do something normal and aerobic. At least I got my heart rate up to 100. I just don't want to let everything go. I know during treatment everything stops, feeling like crap isn't going to be compatible with exercise. I'll just have to walk the dog. 

I would like a scan to see if this has travelled anywhere else. 

I like like reading your responses Cuffcake. Do you like cakes or is it a random wordchoice. I used to do belly dancing and like the name Sabrina as my alter ego. XxxX

I'm very slow taking the decorations down this year, although I'm always like this. I like to watch TV series on the TV apps. 24 hrs in A & E, I used to be a Nurse. I like the stories behind the trauma, love stories and painful experiences that sometimes come out. Just distraction generally. A bit like when I was ill as a kid. Self nurture maybe, baby steps until we feel better. XxX

Hi Sabrina22, wow I've never belly danced, I'm not good with coordination like that. I used to struggle with just exercises on the telly/dvd. I enjoy baking cakes yes, and I have made some fancy ones too for family birthdays. It was meant to be Cupcake but I misunderstood it when someone said it and put Cuff instead so it stayed with me. Everyone is different going through treatment and I admit I certainly wouldn't cope with my spinning classes, but I do try and go for walks with my sons or husband, depending on who will come along with me. Its nice to get out and about and get some fresh air. Also I find it takes my mind off things too. We were very slow at taking down the decs this year. Normally I would just get on with it, but this year I needed help as limited with lifting due to lymph node clearance and also in the opposite arm I have an arm port for chemo so limited on lifting that side too. I have the TV on for distraction too but I tend to watch films or series of some sort. I have occasionally watched hospital ones. Were you in a particular department when you did your nursing?

Hugs from cuffcake x x x x x

Hi Cupcake or Cuffcake like that,

I did lots of things, general nurse training then midwifery, spent 2 yrs in the army as a Midwife. Special baby care, did the course and became a sister in a regional centre. ICU then a bit of paediatrics before health visiting for 29 yrs. Well you did ask.  

I do like walking and dancing. Stopped dancing at the beginning of this. My arm is my project now, trying to get it to straighten up. It's annoying but at least it still works. I didn't even know there was 30 lymph nodes in the axilla. I'm not into baking, I like making casseroles and roasts, trying to get more veg in. 2 wks till Oncotype result. Patience eh, till the day before then it hits me. Xxxxx

Hi Sabrina22, sorry it’s taken a few days to get back to you. I had a blank moment and couldn’t remember your name. I remembered our talk about you being a belly dancer and nurse and I’ve been searching since - must be chemo fog .  Wow what a lot of different nursing experience you have. 
I only had 12 nodes in my armpit, but I know there can be many more everyone is so different. I have been doing my arm exercises and it’s getting straighter. Patience it’s a slow process I think. 
Lovely casseroles and roasts delicious. We cooked a roast chicken in the air fryer it was beautiful, I did cheat and bought aunt Bessie’s roast potatoes and did those in there too.
I had my last EC chemo so I’m having a tired and low energy day today and will probably be the same tomorrow too with achy and sore skin . I start my next cycle at the beginning of feb. 

Let me know who you get on with your onco results. Fingers crossed it comes back low and you don’t need chemo, but I’m here to help and support any way I can if you need

Hugs from cuffcake x x x x x