Hi all

Hello and sorry you have to join us.  The initial diagnosis is just awful as you enter the period of unknown.  When you get a firmer diagnosis/treatment plan you will feel calmer .  Meanwhile we are here to listen.  I'll link you to the chatty awake thread.  Just click reply to last post to say hello.  If yiu click on any members name you'll see their profile.  

https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_types/breast-cancer-forum/f/general/128753/awake/1791191#1791191

I think its perfectly normal to feel like this, I am almost a year after initial diagnosis and I still have dread in pit of stomach even just for routine  follow ups. The fear of the unknown is worse than the known, and once you have the plan you will feel much better, as the road to recovery will start from that point. keep posting and asking questions no such thing as a daft one. 

keep away from Google , use trusted cancer forums x

I thought the same, I wanted to know but then I dreaded to know.   Knowing though, although scary puts you in control....they will guve you your plan and you can get moving with getting rid of the cancer.   Its a long road I am afraid but you can do it.  Sending you a big hug x

I'm sorry you find yourself here, and I think your reaction to your diagnosis has been experienced by just about everybody here; it's a big, big shock.  Waiting is brutal but, as others have said, once you have a plan in place you'll feel more in control.  While you're waiting, it's just one foot in front of the other.

Best wishes