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I am new here. Went into this journey so up on high . With yea I got cancer , a quick op and it will be fine,

Did not even bother me when I had to have 4 biopsies. was told I had been caught early. so thought yep great 2 months back to normal.
I am that type of person that has to think like that, and just want to get on with it. My mental health has never been spot on, so do look at things

speeded up.

My operation was end of March . Started the first month on a high. Now hit rock bottom .
my anti depressants have been upped to max strength.

I don’t feel positive anymore and don’t want to be on this journey anymore.

Lovetowalk over 3 years ago

Hi Dolphino, so sorry that you find yourself on here but welcome to the group.

I think what you are feeling is completely normal, I know that I left my initial diagnosis meeting feeling ok and that it would all be over soon. The realisation that this will carry on for long after all cancer cells are evicted from my breast has been tough and some days are hard.

Wishing you all the best for your recovery and sending hugs Xx

zephyr over 3 years ago

Hi Dolphino, its often harder than we expect and no one would choose voluntarily to be on this cancer journey. No matter how early, its still cancer, and thats a big thing to get our heads around. It is a major life event and often its harder when the treatment is over and we are left with that feeling of "now what?" and "what just happened to me?" I wonder if some counselling might help you find yourself again? The BCN can refer you and many of us on the forum have said just how helpful it has been for them. There is also the macmillan support line if you just need to say it to someone who understands.

Sending you a hug x

Spindrift over 3 years ago

Hi Dolphino, I was the same at the start. So positive about it being caught quick etc. Now only a fortnight on and i'd say i've got more grounded now. Telling people face to face rather than messenger etc brought me down with a bump. No hidden faces! Taking things day by day now, pre op in a week and waiting in second tests results. Thinking of you!!! Xxx

Daisy53 over 3 years ago

Hi Dolphino

Welcome to the forum and sorry to hear that you have been diagnosed with breast cancer. What you are feeling is perfectly normal. it's quite a shock and you just want to get things over and done with as soon as possible.

Would you consider counselling? If you want you can ring the Macmillan helpline on 0808 808 00 00 and they can arrange counselling for you if that's what you would like. Also if you would like the helpline can put you in touch with someone who's going through what you are going through and they will ring you weekly to see how you are getting on.

Wishing you the best of luck with your treatment.

Best wishes

Daisy53

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