I’ve not posted before.. so hello!
50 years old with an aggressive breast cancer. But found out yesterday after all my scans and tests it has not spread.
I’m a freelance filmmaker and the whole issue with work is devastating me.. also after my first chemo am trying to figure out how to stop every fortnight becoming a massive countdown to chemo day! I’ve had so many horrible side effects, but have managed a bit of work, even some filming, and a swim.. but the dread and fear for the next one is ever present. Is this what my whole life will revolve around for now on??!
any tips to try to stop the counting down fear and dread?
Hi Leia71 yup thats how it went for me, but chemo is normaly only for a few weeks and then your body can start recovering, it also tends to build up but because you know what coming it becomes easier to cope with but still difficlt to get your head around because I normally felt fine before each infusion but going to the hospital knowing you were going to feel crap again afterwards is not nice. This is an endrance race, not a fight, it is the price of life and it is worth it, before you know it you will be one of the amazing women supporting other scared women who have been told they have BC. Keep going, you can do this, you are not alone. Love from Ann
There’s no denying that you will feel crap. Especially in that first week after chemo, however I decided to accept it and then planned for that third week when I was feeling well enough to do nice things with my husband and kids. I had 5 rounds of chemo. I would go for a nice meal straight away before the sickness kicked in, and then the minute I started to feel ok I would try to do whatever I could to feel good mentally and physically. If you are very sick you should be given anti sickness tablets. They really worked so that I was able to eat something. You will get through it! And then after that you will feel stronger for it. I hope that helps. I am nearly 3 years down the road from my diagnosis. I have had some complications as a result of radiotherapy but there’s no Cancer which is good! All the best. You can do it!!!
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