Recurrence and I’m frightened.

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Hi. I had a lumpectomy and radiotherapy n early 2016. Then late 2021 I had an itchy spot which became lumpy. Turns out it was a local recurrence of the cancer. I was beyond shocked!  So I had to have a mastectomy from which I’m recovering. It’s pretty painful and I’m nervous to hear the results from the lymph nodes.  I’m also frightened because it came back … I had thought it was gone.  In fact I was discharged from the oncology service.  I’m also scared as I could not even get an appointment in the nhs.  They said they had a big backlog.  So I had to pay privately though if I need more treatment I can’t pay for that and will have to try again in nhs.  

im not sure how to deal with all this and am struggling. So I hope that I might meet some of you online here and hear how you managed your fears and your recovery.  

best wishes to you all

  • Hi so sorry you are having this stress.....I had chemo bilateral mastectomy and radiotherapy and herceptin finished treatment April 2020.....I have been signed off by the surgeon but have calls from my oncologist as I have neurothapy in my feet and fingers a gift from the chemo..!!!!..I haven't had any scans since I finished and pushed for a scan which I had last Tuesday....now just waiting for e results.... extremely stressed in case of recurrence..... it's always there the fear.....so I understand how you are feeling.....it's really hard.... sending you hugs...Two hearts

  • Hiya Ep21,

    I know exactly how you feel.  I had 2 areas of DCIS and a typical cells in my right breast and had to have lumpectomy in December 2013. I then had 15 rounds of radiotherapy.  I had mammograms for 6 years and all good until January 2020.  I then was told I had invasive cancer and had to have a masectomy in April 2020. I have since wished I'd had a masectomy in the first place. It's hard to get your head around cancer returning but I just try to think at least it has been found and been treated. 

    Wishing you all tge best, just wanted you yo know you're not alone.

    Regards 

    BoobyJ

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Booby J

    Hi

    thank you for that. It is so good not to feeL alone in this.  The mastectomy has been a bit confronting but waiting to hear the results of the pathology is so hard.  I know others have had it much worse but it’s hard to keep the fear at bay.  You are right though… it has been found and treated so far. The ct did t show anything so it’s just the nodes news now x

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    FormerMember in reply to Rattybaggins

    Thank you for sharing that.  I Really hope your scan brings good news x