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Hi Country walks 

I'm sorry to hear your diagnosis , it's all so bloody awful at first . That was my hardest time the worry and fear of it all can feel overwhelming on times. All I can say is I wish I hadn't spend so much time deep in worry as it ruined my summer and caused me to need some antidepressants from the GP. My surgery finally came and I had a bilateral mastectomy and node clearance on one side. I had a tumor in both breasts . The surgery is not really painful as breasts on the outside of our bodies and minimal damage is done to the chest area. When you wake up from your surgery you will feel so much better that the bloody cancer is out of your body , it's a good time. Try and stay positive it's easy for me to say but I couldn't do it myself! My breast cancer nurse said I was in a dark place and she was right. It's been 8 weeks since surgery and I have been feeling much better. This week I had to go for more test results and I need Chemo not for the cancer I have had but to stop a reoccurance so I have crashed down a bit . Hopefully you won't need any more treatment after this and you can get back on with life as it was before all this started. Try not to worry you are not alone we all here for you. I hope that you don't get this until the morning which will mean you are managing to get some sleep. Thinking about you 

Jayne X 

Rhiwbina

Thank you for your lovely message . It really is comforting to hear from you . This is a journey none of us expected but we are here : small steps and with love and support we will ride the storm x 

Yes I'm feeling a bit better this morning . Had a long chat with my adult son last night he went over the village pub last night to see the boxing. We talked until about 3am then at 5 I finally came off here and fell asleep on the sofa. I want to try and resign myself to the up and coming chemo. I am thinking that nothing in life has turned out as bad as I have imagined so hopefully this won't.  What a bloody journey we are in I suppose I'm about half way through it and  still crawling may way to the finish line in going to do it I'm such a stubborn bugger ! Lol 

Have a good day 

Jayne 

Morning Countrywalks, sorry you find yourself here but just wanted to say waiting for results and treatment to start was the worst time for me. I’ve just had my lumpectomy ( huge relief) on Friday and felt able to go out walking the next day and apart from soreness no real pain which has surprised me.  Hang on in there you will feel so much better once you have had your surgery.  

Hi Jayne sorry to hear you are having chemo.  If it helps I think I will make the same decision as you if offered chemo for some peace of mind.  I’m feeling much happier and mentally stronger now I’ve had my lumpectomy.  Good luck.  There are lots of people out there who don’t suffer too many side effects, my friend being one x

Morning Wobbly1 

Thank  you . All the best to you too . Hope your recovery continues well . 

Thankyou wobbly 1 had a difficult night just not able to sleep I think I'm starting to come to terms with it  now but still worried about all the side effects   And all the needles I can't bear the thought of having a picc line so doctor said I could just have a cannulae 4 sessions . This is the hardest thing I have ever been through X 

Jayne s

Hi Jayne 

Hope you can rest today and relax … not easy but keeping busy doing whatever you want as this is all about you …. Lovely to have a son who listens and supports . 
Thinking of you as you begin your chemo . Trouble is I find my mind wonders and it’s this journey we are all on and so different in each case . 
But we are here to listen , hug and send good vibes .