Hi everyone, I thought I'd say hello
So here I am, posting about me and how the C word changed my life, just a few months ago. It's all happened so quickly, I don't think I've processed it yet!!
I'd been doing a bit of gardening, I've just turned 47, I was 46 at the time, and I thought, I'd been bitten by an insect. It was a bump, under my skin, on the bony part of my chest, inbetween my boobs. I even tried to squeeze it!!! Then I questioned myself, "had it always been there?"
I made an appointment to see my Dr, who didn't know what it was and it wasn't in the fleshy part of the boob so did make the comment of, "that's in a weird place!" He sent me for a mammogram, I was seen in 2 weeks. That came back clear, to my relief, but my consultant didn't like the look of my lump, so I then had an ultrasound scan, which also was clear, then I had the biopsy, which after 2 weeks of waiting for results, came back as Cancer!!
Yes...that word, the one that throws your life, completely upside down.
My cancer is caused from too much estrogen in my body, which makes perfect sense because I have endometriosis and that loves estrogen too!!!
My consultant was talking about an operation, lymph nodes removed, radiotherapy, hormone treatment, yet, I don't think I actually heard anything she was telling me.
4 weeks later, I've had my lump removed, and my lymph nodes. Luckily they came back clear, which I was so grateful for, however, the 1cm margin around the lump, showed up pre cancerous cells, so I'm booked back in for another operation in 3 weeks time. Fingers crossed the margin will come back clear!! Otherwise we have to talk, mastectomy and chemo!! That absolutely terrifies me!!!! So I'm staying positive and telling myself, this is just a precaution operation!!
This is definitely a roller coaster ride of emotions, some I didn't even know I had!! I've been so up and down, but I'm getting there. I thought I'd be back on my feet in no time but it's taking its toll on me sometimes. It comes over you in waves.
I'm sure everyone feels exactly the same as me, and it's all perfectly normal.
I'm so used to being busy, 100 miles an hour, in everything I do, so to have to just Stop, and recover has been difficult but I'm getting there.
I'm on a count down now for my next operation and I'm hoping it's a success. I'm taking each day as it comes.
Hi, we me to the website no one wants to be on! It's a rollercoaster for sure and sorry to hear your margins weren't clear. But you've come to the right place for support, even if you do have to have further treatment, as there are lots of lovely ladies on here to share experience, give advice, listen and support. Good luck for the next phase x
