Hi all
Got diagnosed last Wednesday. Waiting now for appointment for MRI.
2 lumps on right side but they don’t know how bad.
I had to come off the HRT as advised, now both of them are aching. Don’t know if that’s the lack of HRT or something sinister 
lie awake each night while the family sleep, crying silently, trying to read as much as I can but ending up scaring myself more.
The not knowing is making me crazy.
my mum had breast cancer in her 40’s and nearly died (lung cancer got her in the end) 
no female friends to speak to as I’m pretty much a loner. Just me, partner, 2 kids and the pup.
2 sisters, one the other end of the country and the other has a learning disability and I’m her Carer.
Never been really sick so I don’t know what’s coming. I’ve not had a day off sick in at least 6 years am I going to be off long?
do you lose your hair with chemo?
so many questions and no one to ask
Dear the waiting and the unknown that’s the worst , it’s awful for us all . I’m presently waiting on my annual mammogram results and hopefully 3 yrs clear . But the waiting doesn’t get any better . Once you have had all your scans , your team will sit down and get your treatment plan in order and you will find it easier . I stopped work the day I was diagnosed as I just couldn’t face it and I was my mums carer and only worked 2 days a week anyway . Some people are able to work right through treatment with only minimum day off . Everyone is different .
if you want someone to talk to, the helpline on here are wonderful as are the Maggies centre or similar .
like you I had never been off work and seems that’s the normal ! We are basically a healthy bunch until breast cancer visits us .
I didn’t loose my hair , it was thinner but still there ! Everyone is different as it depends which Chemo you get - you might not need chemo .
I hope you get some sleep now . Your not alone 
the awake thread is a great place to chat at all hours of the night - wee bit crazy - we have to be to get through this rubbish .
Sleep peacefully
love
Ruby Rose 
Thank you 
just been reading some of the blogs, giggling away at the dark humour of it knowing I’ll be in the same boat soon. Glad I signed up on here as it’s given me a bit of an insight into what’s next.
Hi
I found out on Wednesday too. I have stage 2 (preliminary) lobular cancer in my right breast. I've got an MRI on Wednesday afternoon.
I'm 52 and had to stop taking my HRT too and the night sweats are a pain. I miss the HRT 
My MRI will determine what happens next. If it's just the one lump I'll have a lumpectomy and radiotherapy if there's more I'll have chemo and a mastectomy.
I'm trying not to think too far ahead. It's so weird as sometimes if I'm watching TV or reading and distracted I totally forget I have cancer - then it comes back and hits me.
Message me anytime. I'm online everyday.
Take care
