Hi, I'm new. I've finished chemotherapy, waiting to see consultant.

Hi Ponymad29,

I finished chemo just over 2 weeks ago. I have an MRI, Mammo and US tomorrow.

I too am feeling anxious. I think it might be because I’ve been focusing on chemo and getting through it but now that part is, thankfully, over the focus has switched to the next phase which, for me, is surgery. Is it the same for you?

Obviously a lot rests on the scan results with regard to the next treatment phase and the future. Do you think that’s why you’re feeling worried, down and thinking about the future?

I’ve been feeling like that today when I’m usually positive too. 

Thursday seems a long way off but it’s not too far. Hopefully you’ll get good news and you’ll start feeling positive again.

Bluebell xx

Hi Bluebell Woods, I think that's possibly what I'm feeling, that one phase is over and the next is to come. I'm having surgery too. A lumpectomy was mentioned before I started chemo, so I suppose the scan results will determine if this is still the case. The future worries me as so many people seem to get cancer again. Gosh, I'm worrying about getting it again and I haven't got rid of this one yet! 

Good luck for the rest of your treatment and surgery.

Ponymad29 x

Hi Ponymad29,

I know what you mean about getting it again. I suppose people that don’t get it again don’t come back on the site. Maybe your oncologist can tell you what chance you have of recurrence.

Hopefully you will be able to have a lumpectomy. That’s what I’m hoping for. Will see my surgeon in a few weeks so will know then.

Wishing you well for Thursday.

Bluebell xx

Hi Bluebell,

I think joining this forum will help. I don't have any family or friends who have had cancer so I haven't had anyone to talk to about what I'm going through. Although I must say that friends and family are totally supportive. 

Ponymad29 x

Hi Ponymad29,

Yes, joining the forum will be good.

I’ve had some phone counselling via Macmillan. I’m still having well-being coaching and I’ve just started talking to a phone buddy. They’ve all been great.

Friends and family have been great but conversation soon turns to other things. I also don’t want to burden them with all my woes. 
My daughter is getting married this year so I want her to concentrate on that.

Bluebell xx

Hi Bluebell,

I think that's what I'm lacking - someone to talk to where I can chat about my thoughts and worries and not end up talking about what's for tea! 

I'll give the Macmillan number a call and go from there. 

Ponymad29 x

Hi Ponymad29,

Exactly! I find conversation quickly turns to who’s doing what etc.

There was a bit of a delay in getting things in place but it’s definitely been worth it. My counsellor had breast cancer (twice) so can really relate. They’re also trained to really listen. It’s great to be able to get things off your chest and, yes, just talk about yourself!

I’m just back from my MRI, Mamo and US. The Dr said that my lymph nodes look like they’re back to normal on US, which is great news. They’ll discuss the other scan results tomorrow. 
Bluebell xx

Hi Bluebell, 

That's really good news about your lymph nodes. I didn't have mamo or US after chemo.  I had MRI and PET CT.

Ponymad29 x

Hi Ponymad29,

I phoned my BC Nurse and she’s going to phone later this week with the results of my MRI and mamo, so I don’t have to wait so long.

Good luck for tomorrow.

Bluebell xx

Hi Bluebell, 

Thank you and I hope you have good news.

Ponymad29 x