New to breast cancer and finding talking hard

Hello Di, I totally understand where your at. I’ve been so up and down also, and like you in denial some of the time that this is happening to me, and I have at other times been so head FXxx I’ve thought I’m loosing my mind.

I think from reading what others say this is normal for our situation. Hopefully we will come to terms with things and it will get easier. I also think after surgery I will feel a big relief, hopefully you will also. 
Jen xx

My tumour was 19mm. It was lower part of my breast. I was told I’d have one breast smaller than the other but my surgeon has done an amazing job and they appear to still be equal. I have a long scar along the bra line and one where the lymph nodes were removed but it will now be a longer scar after the rest of them are removed on Tuesday. 

Another question i would be interested to hear from others experience; I’m so tired, I have read this can be a symptom of BC. 
Actually my extreme tiredness started last spring after having Covid and I assumed it was the effect of long Covid, whic it may have been. It did get better in the Autumn I think briefly, but for a long time I’ve been so tired even when I’ve slept well. I’m ok in the morning and then have overwhelming tiredness in the afternoon and evening where I’m struggling to stay awake. 
Have others experienced this, or is it just because I’m stressed? 
Hope your all coping better than me xxx

I would say ny tiredness got worse. Post surgery - it's been 3 weeks- my body is trying to heal, I think I tried to do too much, I'm back to work albeit from home and my sleep is awful fuelled by emotions,  hormones, anxiety and stress. It takes me a while to get moving in a morning, do ok then have the 3pm slump, I sometimes log off early and a few days I've had to resort to a nap. I'm still trying to take it all in. I think this is just ne as results tomorrow which I'm anxious about and coping or not with a parent with alzheimer's is not helping.  I'm just trying to get thru each day as it comes. Have taken 2 of the strong painkillers tonight hoping I will sleep. Just as well there is fairy dust from moomy in the AWAKE thread x

Thanks Tired minion, I hope your results tomorrow are favourable and that will help you feel better.

My surgery is a week tomorrow, so my anxiety is increasing even though I want it done. It is all exhausting xx

Wishing you well with your surgery next week. Can I ask the size of your two areas. Mine in 11mm, been on letrozole for a week of slight delay in surgery and been fine on them so far xxx

Noticed your comment about feeling tired, must say I’m struggling even after a decent sleep I wake feeling more tired and takes me all morning to get going!

Having mastectomy on Monday so anxiety building up for that so probably not helping.

Good luck to everyone waiting on results or surgery x

Got my results and cancer all gone with surgery. Next up tamoxifen for 5 years and an appointment at the Christie for radiotherapy stint. I should be overjoyed which I am but to be honest feel a bit flat as I know there is more to come but won't be as bad as surgery! Oh well keep going....

That’s a positive for certain……more to come as you say, but, you’ve come a very long way already……onward and upward!

Best wishes with the next steps x

Thank you. I'm thinking of others too whose stories I've read. One day at a time ..