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Hi, I am new on here. I am not very good at sharing my feelings, I always try to be strong and get through. At the end of August I found out I had a cancerous breath lump and one lymph node. Then after MRI and PET CT scan the hospital said its Lobular breast cancer ER positive and Her2 neg. 4cm and in 1 lymph node no signs of spread any where else. I have been offered a masectomy or masectomy/reconstrution. 2 weeks ago I was put straight on Tamoxifen. I am waiting for an onco test which should be back next Wednesday on an MD meeting day.I am feeling really anxious, starting to feel quite low, I'm so scared about the big operation ahead, if I will get through it, and after.

Now they have mentioned chemotherapy which hadn't been mentioned before. This is so scary to me as my daughter, who is now 17, had kidney cancer a rear cancer bilateral wilmslow tumor when she was 1 and a half, so I remember how hard this was for her and there were some scary times. 

I am 46 and premenopausal. I have researched, I have completely changed my food intake, veg, lentils, nuts, fruits. Spices, not much meat, some fish and but of chicken. I have lost weight,.and my family say. I need to eat more, but I'm scared what to put in my body, and trying to give myself the best fighting chance.

Sorry for the very long post.  

  • Hi  , just wanted to pop in quickly to send love and a big virtual hug. My cancer was a bit different but I’m sure others with similar will come with their experiences. You’re at a really horrible limbo stage atm, waiting for tests, results, and surgery. Very scary. But this is a great place to come for support and shared experiences. Love and hugs, HFxx

    HappyFeet1 xx
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  • Thank you happy feet. I really appreciate your post. It is a horrible place to be at. 

    1. Love and hugs to you xxx
  • Hi there, sorry you are going through this and I have to admit, I found it got easier once I had a clear plan and treatment started.  You might want to think about giving the lovely folks here at Macmillan a call. They are open every day from 8am to 8pm on 0800 808 0000 and are there to offer a listening ear and to provide advice and support.  Best wishes 

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  • Hi,

    Taking good care of yourself is one of the best things you can possibly do for yourself under the circumstances and well done you for that! The first post cancer diagnosis couple of weeks were the worst for me and I guess this is how it is for most of the people diagnosed with cancer. My cancer was different from yours, but size of tumour and node involvement were the same and I had a mastectomy with immediate DIEP reconstruction. I won't say it was easy, but it was far from as terrible as people imagine it is. On top of that, I was 58 when I had the surgery. You are much younger which will definitely help! Try to stay positive, it is very reassuring that your cancer hasn't spread beyond one lymph node. Mine was found in one lymph node too and that was why I was offered chemotherapy which hit me harder than my cancer diagnosis itself! I did 8 cycles of chemotherapy which were very doable with minimum side effects. The nurses and the whole team were brilliant! I am sure you will be in very good and capable hands too so do try not to worry too much, things will definitely get better with time!!! The very best of luck with your treatment and hope for the best!

    Lana xx

  • Hi Lana, thank you for your reply, the oncologist has now said I will be having chemotherapy aswell, this scares me,but I am trying to research and plan/prepare before hand, hoping this will help. I do hope you are well and feel better now.

    Thank you xx

  • Thank you irishgirl

    I'm starting to get a pain, chemotherapy is first..then surgery. I am scared about the chemotherapy, I worry about how this is going to effect me, I'm sure everybody does.

    Thank you x

  • Hi I found the fact that I would need chemotherapy one of the most shocking aspects of my diagnosis.

    I think everyone who has commented about their chemo on here will say that it was nowhere near as awful as they thought it might be. It’s not particularly nice, but it is usually completely doable. 

    Definitely eat more. Eat well, but you can eat a pretty well rounded diet. I ate pretty much what appealed to me - but I did, and still do eat a lot of fresh fruit and veg.

    Good luck - you will have a great team looking after you

  • Thank you Susan, 

    It's is scary the not k owing how your body will react, but this is so reassuring hearing alot if people say its not as bad as they thought.

    I have been working out in the gym, researching  before hand to prepare, for chemo, what I should be doing, and using,and eating/drinking. I feel planning is helping me in some way...

    I am so thank full for the comments and posts. And appreciate it very much.

    Thank you Suaan HB x

  • I also had chemo, before my surgery. It was scary at first, but I got into the routine of it and I won't pretend it was easy, but it was do-able.  I hope the same for you once it starts. Best wishes 

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  • Thank-you Irishgirl Slight smile

    Best wishes to you. I hope things are OK for you now xx