Me, now?

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Hi all. New here. I’ve had chemo, single mst. And just ended a 6 month chemo tablet course, which was hard. Struggling now with not thinking the worst and thinking everything is a return.

i feel mentally wiped. Lack of motivation and energy, and can I sleep! Once I manage to fall asleep I can sleep for 10 hours easily, and when I wake it’s so warm and safe, I lie there. Scrolling or reading. Is this ok?

I also find it an effort to do things, eg my husband says we need to fill in insurance forms, or I have a task to do. You’d think I’d been asked to organise a NATO conference. Lost my mojo.

is this normal? Is this me now?

  • HI Polly new here myself  so welcome. Is this the new normal for you you ask I don't think I can answer that really but you have been through a  heck of a lot. I've just started on my  "Have I got cancer waiting for tests journey." and when I can sleep I can spend a lot of time asleep (it gives me some respite away from the doom and gloom thoughts) so I can understand the sleeping bit. Lack of motivation and the other stuff you mention well I feel similar at times  Hope all is well atm

  • Hi Polly, I’ve recently completed active treatment too and for me this is the hardest part so far emotionally and physically. I’m also struggling with anxiety around the what if’s. I’ve chatted this through at my local Maggie’s and it seems this is quite normal. I unfortunately am not sleeping due to Letrozole hot flushes and an overactive mind. I’m hoping to attend a what now course run by Maggie’s to help me walk forward from where I’m at now. 
    I’m sorry you’re feeling like this, just when others sometimes think you’re ‘over it’. 
    im reading an interesting article called ‘after cancer/moving forward’ which is helping me understand how I feel. Be kind and patient with yourself we need time to heal physically and mentally xx

  • Ty. And hope you get the results you want. X

  • I’ve heard of Maggies, must see if there’s one near me. Ty for replying. X

  • I would highly recommend it. I put off going initially, but it’s such an open, calming, welcoming environment. From reading on here, I believe macmillan  have support centres too x