Hi everyone
Apologies for nutty post!
Well I underwent my op for wire led bilateral local excision plus lymph nodes taken for checking ( can’t remember all the terminology)
Operation was wed 3rd May where I’m surprised they didn’t have to scrape me off the ceiling. The following morning a dr came round and said ‘oh both lumps were removed ‘ and she sounded all pleased. So I asked if they’d managed to get the margins. She replied on the right hand side yes, but not on the left. So I cried. Prob as I suffer from anxiety and as the woman next to me snored for the entire night so I had eyes on stalks.
I was so hoping that they’d got everything and really don’t want to go through another lot of surgery 
So waiting now for a date for appt to discuss way forward 3-4 wks I’ve been told.
Yesterday I had to stop wearing bra top as it’s pushing into the dressings and clear patches which are covering the wounds and have had a nightmare trying to get comfortable.Don’t know if anyone has any suggestions……I did make some heart cushions and kept two for myself and gave rest to ward sister to distribute. I found these do help to relieve the pressure.
Currently wide awake as I decided to go back to my bed tonight as hubby said he was missing me(I’ve been sleeping in my daughters old room) and the dog who does suffer from doggie dementia and is parially sighted has been pacing about and being rather vocal. After getting in and out of bed trying to shine a light to enable her to see where she is in the bedroom I ended up putting basket in my daughters room in which I’m back sleeping. After more pacing about and moaning (the dog not me), I found myself at the top of the stairs trying to coax her downstairs. I just sat there as I can’t lift her after op and hubbys asleep in 2 secs and has to be up at 5.20am and all I wanted to do was sleep and or cry. I don’t do crying but after coming off HRT after 18 years I’m having all the fun of sweats and tears which is soo annoying. I couldn’t stand it any longer so I threw her basket back in with hubby and came back into my daughters room and shut the door. I can still hear her growling and the odd bark and my husband has actually woken and shouted at her. I know I should feel bad but in truth I really don’t as if I don’t look after myself then clearly my hubbys not as he’s in the land of nod. And I think my knight in shining armour has got delayed somewhere 
I hope whoever is still awake reading this has a bit of a smile on their face after reading this and thinks ‘omg I’m so glad I don’t have that westie’ 
Wishing you all a good sleep Lynn xx
