But not a very patient one!
I've at least got a diagnosis, it's invasive ductal cancer grade 2, but still small, oestrogen receptive but looks as if I might get away with the lymph nodes....and maybe not too much treatment afterwards?
Complex plan, but to begin with, a sentinel node (plus another one or so) removal as day surgery, (a nuclear medicine visit first to get 'the jab' for them to trace) then a gap while that, plus the HER result come back, then because of my previous surgeries for cysts and the fact one resulted in a massive haematoma, therefore scar tissue, I will have a complete mastectomy with an implant. That will be immediately after Easter.
By finding out as much as possible beforehand, the surgeon hopes to prevent too many operations. Obviously I will then need Tamoxifen or similar, so will appreciate helpful advice about that.
But I'd be interested on anyone's 'take' on her plan. I feel reassured that she took time with me, and the BC nurse afterwards spent a good while too.
Hugs xxx
Feeling lots better today, it took me a very long time to get to sleep, as I was still feeling tearful, ended up going into the back bedroom around 1am, and suddenly slept. Perhaps hubs presence helped (it’s where his ashes are, on the chest, plus some lovely pictures up on the wall).
Slept till fine 8.30….
Thank you my lovely friends, again, for your messages, plus the lovely lady I sobbed at on the phone line yesterday.
Hugs xxx
Moomy
I went to the carol service at our parish church this evening and thought of all my dear friends on this site while we prayed (I’m not that religious but thinking good thoughts has to help, surely?)
The church was full, I met an old friend who was a colleague way way back (he was the Hospital Secretary, that tells you -anyone who knows, how long ago it was!) and sat with him. We sang lustily together. No choir, but I sang the alto parts that I knew!
It was a mile there and a mile back, walked both ways which was very good for me (and I wore a mask all through the service, not easy to sing)
Hugs xxx
Moomy
A little up and down. Listened and read a lot about lymphoedema to be more informed with decision I've made. Still worried but i think im sticking to the clearance decision even with the increased chance of this lymphoedema there. Just worried as I had 4 ops on my right shoulder / elbow so its just going to be problems with both sides. Theres a chance of it developing with radio and even with biopsy - so its there no matter what I do. Geez its hard
Ninsim ️
Lovely that you got out and it did you good. Missing another concert my children are participsting in today unfortunately. My daughter on the harp in a group and son soprano cornet in a band. Gutted, again, but its just not a good idea say the nurses before another op in january so its going to be a quiet holiday in our house. Feel bad for the children - they will miss the new year do with friends and everything. God its hard.
Ninsim ️
These decisions aren’t at all easy, I'd really go with my previous advice of talking it all through with your BCN, Ninsim Ok she might not give you her full opinion but ask her what she’d do if it was her?
Missing stuff is hard, but you’ll be there next year for them….. and maybe someone would film it for you?
I’m really not sure if I should have done that, maybe I’ve put myself (and family) at risk? But it was good. I’m coughing this morning, but that’s totally usual with being masked like that, it always upsets my asthma but I’d rather that than worse!
Hugs xxx
Moomy
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