AWAKE.........

Hi Carol (Grogg) 

I’m still around. Just been struggling to get motivated to come on here to read or post! Losing Jenny has been hard and I just feel a bit lost/empty! But really appreciate you thinking of me. Hope you are doing okay?

Sending lots of love to all the Fruit Loops xx

Sending hugs LondonLass to hopefully fill a little gap with love ️

Sorry to hear you are struggling LondonLass.  The days//weeks & months after losing someone are so difficult.  An empty space that can't be filled, feeling guilty for smiling again but somehow we keep putting one foot in front of another.  

love yo you and others struggling xx

Thanks Santababy and Grogg, always nice to feel the love and support of the fruit loops! 
I think part of the emotions come from feeling guilty at still being here, I know that probably sounds odd to some of you. Believe me it’s difficult to explain! Or understand! 

I’m also having so many ‘issues’ with different things and feeling emotionally and physically exhausted. Have spent a little time with my sisters doing different things and although I have enjoyed some of the time I spent with them, I’ve also struggled with seeing how different my life is to theirs! Yes I’m jealous that I struggle to do so much and they are constantly discussing things that I just can’t join in with anymore! It’s hard!

Anyway that’s enough of me feeling sorry for myself! Sending love to all. Xxx

Well I suppose as I am back on for a bit I should share some IMPORTANT news with you all. As I know some of the Fruit Loops rely on me for this! 

So here it is……..

SORRY! I couldn’t resist! Xxxxx

Fully understand those feelings LondonLass, a very close friend passed from BC before I was diagnosed, ( I knew I had BC but would not recognise it as wanted to be there for her ) so when my first diagnosis was treated and all went well and I went on with my life I felt survivors guilt each and every day especially as I had ignored it so long, Roll on to today and it’s like payback for ignoring it last time but I wouldn’t have done anything differently and I just try to draw from the strength she showed.

All fruit loops are here for you in thought and in posts xx

Hi LondonLass, a funny story,,we’re travelling in Spain and visited some old friends yesterday. He ended up opening their supply of Spanish Christmas biscuits. Never too early. 

If I could I’d send you all some…. xxx

Karen22 my son has been over from Prague and we broke open the Christmas packet of choc caramel truffles!!

Londonlass, so sorry you are struggling still following Jenny's passing. Butbitbis entirely understandable after what you had both been through together. Itnis devastating to lose a friend but none who has been through similar circumstances makes it almost more immediate. You were both of such support to each other so when one of your main elements of grounding and support disappears you are bound to feel unsettled!

We have just been planning moving round furniture so we can get the Christmas trees up before we go to Prague in 4 weeks!

You’re so good at this Grogg. I find it too stressful and leave well alone ! Xx

Well Done Everyone. I believe we have reached yet another milestone…..

wow!! Amazing! What more can I say, except I love you Fruit Loops! Xxx