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Hello Sal, just wanted to wish you all the best at your appointment today. Thinking of you xxx

Hi LL,

Hope it goes ok today.

In fact you know who you need - your little buddy!

Put him in your pocket, but don't squash him....

Gay xxx

Hi Jo Jo,

Glad you have feline support, really helps !!! 

Charlie is lovely >^••^< A Bengal ?? Judith xxx 

Best of luck Sal and love and hugs xxxx

Really great news JoDec ...cats can be a great comfort ...my cat snuggles up to me when I'm awake ...so pleased your home at last ...now rest up and hope your back on your feet real soon ...take it easy lots of love xxxx

Hi London Lass, omeprozole is so much better than cheaper ranitidine.

You are so right about oncologist appointments, we all want to know what we don't really don't want to hear but how do you deal with 'I don't know exactly what's going on'.

I find the truth easier to deal with than the imagination.

So with that in mind, I will be thinking of you at the oncologists appointment and will be sending ((((((((((lots of love and great big supportive hugs)))))))))) try to keep strong Xxxx

What can I say other than......

I was very touched to read all of your messages. 

My appointment went okay. I had a good chat with my Oncologist and BCN they answered all of my questions. I was a bit shocked by some of the information I was given. It's amazing how you can go along for months not really knowing exactly what you are living with! Suddenly you realise that maybe you had a reason for being in pain and struggling with everyday life! Maybe I'm not as pathetic as I thought I was!! 

Jo it's good to hear you are home! Xx

Hi LL 

Glad you got the information you were seeking. Hope they can get your sleeping problem sorted and they can give you something to help with the pain.

Sue xxxx

Hi LondonLass,

I hope your appointment with the Oncologist went well and you got all the answers to your many questions!

Thank you for all your posts, they do bring me a lot of comfort & encouragement. 

Take care, I hope you can sleep better tonight.

Much love and every good wish, 

Evergreen333 

Well I slept for 2hrs then woke and am now lying here just thinking about today! ............

I was told the size of the area of sternum (breastbone) that they removed, the size of the metal plates. He told me what area is still active on the scan and the size of it! I think this was probably the information that really has got me thinking and wondering, why I hadn't asked before or more to the point why it had never been mentioned!! You'd of thought at some stage it would of popped up in the conversation. I was under the impression that the area left was a tiny area where they hadn't got clear margins.....that's what I was told! So I was thinking we Were talking mm's, which is why I couldn't work out why I was in pain and why I needed all these pain meds just to get through the day, now at least I think it makes sense!

Anyway it's all done now and once it's all sunk in I am sure I will feel more in control. I know for certain after today's chat that my oncologist and BCN really are trying to help me, on this journey. They don't understand how I truly feel but they are definitely on my team and there if I need them!

Well that was alot of babble about nothing in particular! But it's now out of my head and down on computer. So I SHOULD be able to get back to sleep! Night night my wonderful friends, hoping you are all happily in the land of nod, dreaming sweet dreams. Xxxxxxxx