AWAKE.........

 I know I can’t give you a real hug , but we try

I hope your follow up appointment will reveal the problem and hope its not too bad or at least something that is easily solved.

 good luck on your early retirement on health grounds, i know are just ridiculous procedures but hopefully it will soon be all settled for you. Iam glad that you have your conselling support and again as LondonLass righty put it giving the Macmillan helpline a call just a chat with a voice at the end of the phone helps and even some have spoken to the samartians at night just for that important feeling of hearing someone at the end of the phone. It cant be easy being on your own without family around but you have the Macmillan famiy of fruit loops here. 

LondonLass what a bummer your appointment has been cancelled and even more you can have a lie in but your struggling to sleep and have that benefit of the lay in. Enjoy a cuppa in bed at least and just take your time and relax if nothing else. 

I have had a restless night, however i did get a bit more sleep at least and planning abit more this morning before i go out. Got a few things i want to get sorted out and i need some materials to make the retirement card for my cns. I do actually have a team of nurses that obviously look after hundreds of ladies i am sure, but this CNS thats retiring was my rock when i was diagnosed and kept in contact with me and always no matter how busy she would gladly listen to you to anyone and really good support, its no wonder she kept winning nurse of the year awards etc, because she is fabulous so I wanted to make her a card, its the best i can do. I had thought of doing her a painting but not sure haven’t decided and i can post the card pretty soon. I don’t go back to the hospital where she is till January but i may pop over on the bus to try and see her before her retirement next month and give her a hug. 

LP well he must be tired with all his antics of the week, is he going to be able to give you londonlass abit of extra support for you today for a change. Where would any of us be without you.

  Morning all, just been catching up on the posts, seems there are a lot of hugs needed.

LondonLass, , , GBear, seaspirit44, , and anyone else who needs one sorry if I havnt mentioned you by name.

, as LondonLass says it is nice to have someone to text on those days, someone who knows just what you are going through, if you need me I am here

hope you all have the best day you can xx

Jmp, may have got it wrong , but think from your posts you live alone ......most of the time I am ok with this as I have a busy life , but I DREAD Christmas ( every year , not just post bc ) allmy usual activities stop , this year I will be alone and purposeless from Thursday to the day after Boxing Day , when I am scheduled to get chemo !! Then everything stops for new year ! I had a melt down last year , pathetic I know ....not helped by people with awkward families telling me they would “ love “ a few days alone .......looking into the light box sounds a good idea , I am a great fan of “ light “ I make sure I am out at least 90 minutes every day , I do “ green gym “.....these days mostly walking , but I used to run , and if we go for coffee afterwards we sit outside ......it hasn’t stopped me getting secondaries , but I do have lots of energy !!

toxophilite .....the motorbikes drive like mad round here , please be safe ( and enjoy it )

sorry to hear you are having a hard time snowy mum ......sending best wishes.  X

well , LL , what can anyone say , heartburn is vile ......I wonder if there are any particular foods that make it worse ? You are dealing with so much , you could have done with that counselling.....pleased to hear you are in touch with people who “ get it “ ......I hope you have something nice to do this weekend , and you sleep a bit more , take care ...x

Oh no - what was it I said that made you decide not to have the flu jab? I had mine (eventually!) and didn't have any problems with it!

Sorry to hear that you're having such a tough time at present. Sending you a massive hug! 

LondonLass - I HATE heartburn with a passion - SOOOOOO uncomfortable! It's the one thing (apart from the blood problems) that this chemo causes me, and if it's not that, it's indigestion, random hiccups and burping - very ladylike!!!! 

I'm assuming that you take a PPI? I have to take one morning AND evening now, so it might be worth asking if this is a possibility? I also swig Gaviscon Advance when necessary - my GP was lovely enough to put big bottles on my repeat prescription. She also said that I could take Ranitidine  twice a day as well as Lanzoprazole, so she prescribed that too. I've not taken that yet, but at least I have it in reserve... 

Hugs to you 

seaspirit44 - fingers crossed that you continue to improve and that you can get home from Hotel NHS very soon. Good grief, you must be dizzy doing all that walking in a small area - I hope you changed direction a few times!!! 

I had to laugh at one of the consultants when I was in after my PE - he said 'are you mobilising?' Well, given the fact that I wasn't allowed out of my room and more importantly, was attached to oxygen on the wall at the time, the answer was pretty obvious!!! 

Hugs to you as well, in fact hugs to EVERYONE!!! 

I'm having a lazy day today as it's the first day of the week with no hospital appointment, so I'm going to stay on the sofa, watch rubbish TV, knit and eat rubbish... oh, and I might have a nap later!!! GO ME!!! 

Thanks for the hug  Cathy, I already take Omeprozole morning and evening plus liquid when required!! It's been under control for a while now but I have these random nights, out of the blue when it just happens and it's awful, as you will know! Once the burning in the throat has started its impossible to get rid of! I hate it! But that's life. 

I'm sorry to hear it's something that you are having to deal with too, especially on top of all the other crap! Think you deserve a........

HUG Xxxxxxxxx

That are very lively, thank you x I diid get back to sleep, and again after BP at 6.30, and was woken by breakfast. BP was lowest since my admission

Hope you get on well with all your issues xxx

and LondonLass big hugs xxxx

And to everyone struggling xxxx

, glad you got through it, but sorry about the diverticular disease. Something else as well!! Very best of luck with the next investigation xx

You must stay with this thread, originally started by LondonLass. It has been an absolute godsend to me. Such a lot of laughs. LP is so helpful when we have investigations and procedures lol. And there is always someone there when we are struggling, even in the middle of the night. xx