AWAKE.........

being awake at this rubbish time has been part of my life since the menopause! Have given up worrying about it now and know that I will usually get back to sleep after an hour or so. Just wish the brain could subdue itself a little as everything seems so much more intense this time of the morning.

Beautifully said googlemuma, I think the samd thing at 5am each morning when 2 wood pigeon babies are crying for their mummy to come and feed them. Then nest is in the guttering just above my window! The one plus to night sleeping well is hearing/seeing things that everyone else misses! 

Although having said that, on my working days I really would swap that for sleep, as feeling so drained while trying to work is really tough.

Anyway I am AWAKE again! So I went for a wee before my argument starts again! 7hrs to go before my appt with Hospice Nurse, and MUM!!! Really hoping she will start to understand how I really feel sometimes! 

Love to anyone whose AWAKE but not switching on, wishing you all sweet dreams! Xxxx

I was awake last night but didn't see anything here so I didn't post. 

I was awake thinking about the plumber that we had yesterday and all the mistakes he made and I couldn't wake DH to tell him because he wouldn't have slept either! 

Why can't people just do things right?! 

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I was awake last night but didn't see anything here so I didn't post. 

I was awake thinking about the plumber that we had yesterday and all the mistakes he made and I couldn't wake DH to tell him because he wouldn't have slept either! 

Why can't people just do things right?! 

These 2...............heeheeheehee! 

Hope you get a better nights sleep tonight! Xxxx

Ah well, I'm OK now I've off loaded on himself!  He agreed with me that it's a bodge job, but all the prices were similar so it's not the cheapest by much and we absolutely cannot afford any more!  I'm getting him to change something anyway so we'll see.

Yay, it's weekend. And my work phone is OFF!!

Me this morning

And

MUGA went ok, they wouldn't tell me anything as usual. I asked them to expedite as I'd like to know before next H. They did wonder why I'd been sent to Royal Surrey rather than Frimley - I told them that registrar is a law unto herself, and who knows why!!

Hi All,

Karen pleased to hear the MUGA scan went okay, let's hope you get the results ASAP! It does make you laugh when they question the patient as to why they were sent to one hospital and not another!!

My day was fairly positive! Meeting with hospice nurse and mum! For the first time since secondaries were diagnosed I was completely honest about how I feel! She also shared her feelings! It was a definite start! Fingers crossed it continues!

So my face this evening.......

LETS HOPE IT LASTS ALL WEEKEND, as that would be nice!

Good night all xxxx

Thought I'd join the club tonight. Been awake in the wee small hours for weeks but an extra element to it tonight...I will be taking my first Tamoxifen in the morning. The start of 10 years (well, until I go on to AI s anyway). Those tablets look mighty small to keep the feckin BC cells at bay!  Start radiotherapy soon too. One of my pointless tasks as I have lain awake was to calculate how much I've spent on petrol and parking so far...£450!

Ffs. I could have had a pair of Laboutin. Mind, my fat feet probably wouldn't fit in them.

Anyone else awake?

Xxx

Hi Batfinkcaz

Well im awake - although i suspect youre probably not now lol.  Your post made me laugh.  Good luck with the Tamoxifen and the next 10 years!

Karen

Hi - I'm awake unfortunately. After my worst day so far for feeling rubbish (due to chemo), I wanted a good night's sleep but been awake since 3.30 - no chance of dropping off again so on the iPad playing 'hidden object games' - not got the brain cells to read a book. Feel hungry but everything tastes like soap so drinking lots of barley water which for some reason tastes normal. Hugs to all the other night owls out there and hopefully better sleep tomorrow night xxx