AWAKE.........

Hi all sorry to go off topic but does anyone know if mammogram cover underarm nodes .I had clear mammogram in December and this bit for pain was there then and it was all clear .I asked the consultant last week if a problem in nodes would have shown and he said oh yes but then my own oncologist popped in to say hello as I got booked to wrong person and I asked him and he said mammogram only covers breast  am confused now thankfully pain gone now I'm convinced it's my bra x

WhatHappened and Violetsniff .... what to say except we can chose our friends but not our family. Mams are precious .. wish mine was still here... loved listening to her stories, and my Aunts, the simplest of things/gestures gave so much pleasure but spending time with them was the gold standard. I have fond memories of spending many hours nattering on the phone too.... happy days, lovely memories.

Optimistic ... everything crossed for your scan.

......  not the news you want to hear at the beginning of a new year. They do say that when one door closes another opens ... I do hope so. Hugs xx

toxophilite ... county record congrats.

hugs to all xx

Hi Optimistic, I think I am correct in saying the mammogram covers the breast only! Ultrasound is the only way to see the nodes, although I would think its HIGHLY unlikely for there to be a problem in your nodes, when your breast was clear just a few weeks ago! 

However it's good to check and reassure you! Rather than you worry for the next few months!! Just put it to the back of your mind. The appointment will be here before you know it and at least with an ultrasound you get the results on the day! 

Xxxxxxxx

Thank you for all your kind words and positivity. Even I didn't realise how much I'd been through last year until I wrote it down & I missed a lot of personal crap out! I'm actually in a very good place despite it all, although it has made me realise that I now have the chance to re-evaluate my life & think about where I want to go from here. I haven't made up my mind yet and I'm not going to rush it - I have 2 & 1/2 months left after all. Maybe I'll finally fulfil a few dreams.

Iglad to hear you are in a good place, sometimes all the crap allows us to seek out the good.  Am sure you will find a role whiere you will be much happier.  

I was WIDE awake for a few long few hours last night.  I had a horrendous dream.  Nurse had called me to ask me to come into hospital urgently the following day.  I said I couldn't as it was too short notice as I was at work. I asked if they could delay it and was told Absolutely not.  Results were in.  I only had 3 months to live.  I said that can't be, tnot even a year.  he kids need me, I can't leave them. I was then angry that she told me over the phone.  I then woke up, and just couldn't back to sleep.  I wasn't crying.  Though in my dream I was.  I have just been worried, and thinking about it today.  I told my husband - but he just went really silent.  

As it happens my first scan is due in a ew weeks time - my husbands  birthday, in a few weeks time.  Am incredibly worried as I am high risk.   I have been chirpy at work - but I just need to get this off my chest, and no one to tell.  Thank you all for taking the time to listen.  While I feel better, I hope I haven't made anyone feel worst.  I am just worried that I have just come out of a pretty crap year, and I don't know whether I will be able to cope with another lot of bad news.  Sorry here I go again.  Sending husgs xxxx

I'm so sorry you had such an awful dream, no wonder it's been such a huge worry for you. I wonder if the silence from your husband means he's been worrying about the same thing. I'm glad you're feeling better for getting this off your chest - a problem shared is a problem halved, as they say - this site is a godsend, isn't it! Being high risk like yourself I'm always silently worried that more bad news is to come and often wonder how much more I can take before I break. Huge hugs to you & I've got everything crossed that your scan is great news xoxoxo

I think everyone will know how you feel having felt the same way at some point since diagnosis so please keep unburdening your fears/worries/wobbles here in the safest & non-judgemental place. We are all here for you and will be virtually holding your hand through each and every moment, good and bad.

Hi ask123

i really value your honesty in sharing your fears. I would hope we all believe that we can share however we feel. Our individual journeys can seriously shake up all our emotions in a way that many can’t understand. It’s so helpful for me to read everyone’s experiences it helps me feel connected to you all, like a huge understanding  supportive family . I don’t want this to sound corny but you are all just amazing! 

Hi sending positive vibes for good scan results. You've done amazing through all this and bad dreams are expected when we have results etc.Keep busy  and smiling and  you know you always have support here xxxx

Hi , really sorry to hear that you had such a horrid dream, I think we have probably all been there and know exactly how you felt. I just wish you had come straight on here and seen if anyone was around. I'm sure someone would of been around to offer a virtual hug and an ear to listen. So remember, if it was to ever happen again! Hopefully not!! But we are always here!!

As for the dream it certainly sounds connected to your upcoming scan/results! But you know what Hun, the scan has as much chance of being clear as it has of showing anything bad! So please try not to worry until there is something to actually worry about. Whatever happens and whatever the results, we will face it with you and you will cope with whatever is thrown at you, because you are 100 times stronger than you give yourself credit for! 

Love you Hun. We are all here for you! Sal xxxxx

GOOD MORNING ALL,

Wishing everyone a Good Day! All the best to anyone with appointments or treatment today. Anybody working, I hope the day flies by!

I'm off to see the benefits advisor today! Fingers crossed he can help me and then I will have the final piece of puzzle in place to make the decision about leaving my job! I'm 99% sure that it's time to leave and to give myself and more importantly my body, a much needed rest! 

Problem is I HATE feeling I'm letting anyone down and I'm going to miss the little girl! Xxxxx