Evening/morning all
just got through the worse night of anxiety I’ve had for years…I tried everything but it just wouldn’t go…it was horrible…
it all stems from I had a crash today in the taxi…completely not my fault as the in car video footage has shown..
I’ve not watched it but the garage have seen it and it turns out that the guy who wrecked the taxi crossed two lanes at speed to try and make a left turn just as I was going forward and took me out to the point where pedestrians were jumping out of the way. The taxi is a mess, front bumper hanging off, the wing of the taxi was split in two. Apart from feeling a bit stiff im ok…
I got the cab to the garage after getting details from the other driver, then had a two hour wait to pick up a replacement and fill out paper work ect.
By the time I got home I think I was starting to go into shock…the anxiety kicked in and I was looking for problems. At one point I was wondering if I needed to go to the hospital, I was so scared, thinking I can’t go to sleep in case I don’t wake up… I wish I could stop thinking like this..headphones on I was just laying there with my headspace playing,but I just couldn’t shift it…eventually 5 hours later I managed to come out of it…ive not been like that for years..sitting here now at 1am I’m feeling rather lucky because it could have been a lot worse..
just needed to put this down…makes me feel better…
love to you all…Nigel xxxx
