Evening all,
A month before this round of BCG I was exercising regularly and eating well, this led to me sleeping well and feeling good.
fast forward to now, I’ve stopped all exercise and am eating like a pig…I ate so much tonight I actually threw up. Why do I do it?
angry with myself….
sorry for the rant..
Nigel xx
Hi Rob,
I've been there and worn the T-shirt (size 24). In my case it was emotional eating and bingeing (any food though mostly chocolate) over at least 20.years. I went to the gym 3 times a week so wasn't unfit, but it was only once I left my very stressful job (said goodbye to the morons, especially the new boss who tried to bully me) and even then it took 5 years before I took a good look and realised I didn't need all this food.
The only reason it worked was necause I faced the real reasons for my behaviour and learnt that eating chaotically wasn't the solution. Removing myself from triggers was the main thing and learning to eat healthily got me down to a reasonable size and state of health. I lost 7 stones and have kept most of that (5.9 stones) off for 20 years. And for most of the time have been very fit and healthy. (Weightwatchers, walking, gym and Pilates did it for me).
Cancer did retrigger me a bit although chemo meant I was too weak to get to the shops and everything tasted foul for a while anyway. Although of course taste is irrelevant to a binger.
I'm still a bit heavier than I'd like and can still be tempted by chocolate - had a couple of bars I hardly tasted last week when stressed over a small problem.
The moral, in my case, is one lapse is not a problem but neither is it an excuse for total collapse.
Good luck, try and face your triggers and that's a good first step. Then just put one foot in front of the other. Beating yourself up doesn't help but remembering that most of the time you can cope fine does.
And all the best with this cancer thing, it's always one step at a time for us all with that.
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