Let’s go back to the weekend before Valentine’s Day, myself and the wife were looking forward to a nice meal out… just before we was due to leave I needed a quick wee before we set off.. BAM!!!!!! A toilet bowl full of claret looking urine….not a little bit, it was flowing out of me….ive never been so scared before in my life…called the wife to have a look..the look of horror on her face told me that she also thought this wasn’t good. It was a Sunday night so we rang 111 for some advice, they told me to book an appointment tomorrow to see my GP…that was the longest night of my life… next day we got an appointment with my GP. He tested my urine sample and told me that the strip is indicating that there was NO blood in my urine even though it was a dark red colour… he tested it again and got the same result. I was positive now that it was just a UTI…. Doctor told me that they would send off the sample for testing just to double check.. a few days had passed and the blood in the urine had stopped, I was so relieved…then a call from the doctor knocked me back down to rock bottom, the lab results had come back and there was blood in the urine, he had referred me to the urology clinic for a fexi cystology…as an urgent case… I spent the next week or so, counting down until the dreaded day..I turn up at the clinic not knowing what I was going to have done, I was walking around in a daze, still convinced that maybe it’s a UTI..it wasn’t… I spent all of the procedure with my eyes closed just praying that it was all going to be ok…. The consultant told me to open my eyes, I did…he showed me a mark on my bladder, he told me that he couldn’t be 100%. sure but he thought it was cancer…. I asked if it was life threatening to which he replied, not at this stage… I was numb, I remember just laying there in disbelief… i got up, and got dressed, I felt so alone and helpless. I left the hospital and then realised I had to tell my wife…that was a phone call I’ll never forget..she rushed home from work and we spent the rest of the day trying not to cry and trying to think of the best outcome…and then, the silver lining that I was hoping for.. a Tv add for Macmillian was on, which lead to me this wonderful web site…you guys have kept myself and my wife going and I love you all for it… the rest as they say is history ( on going) so two TURBTS later and onto BCG#4, I feel positive about the future…
just needed to get that out there…
Nigel xxxx
