my NHFL not curable but manageable cancer has been in remission for 4 years .i was strong i coped well with having support and love from the only person in my life who trully knew me.
But no more i was cast adrift , now no one has my back and now every day feels like grieving , impact has sucked my soul and inner spark and strength away ,i now wonder why i fought so hard to survive chemo for a life of nothing , no one to share with, losing ones health, losing role had in life ,losing friends ,few family who dont do emotions and i dont see either.
waking up to another day for what . go through the motions of going to things but feels like losing control the emotions are opening up and seeping out like a crack in the wall getting bigger.
lots of losses , falling apart.
