Hello, my husband (35yo) has been battling bladder cancer for nearly 5 years. after multiple operations and treatment we were told last week that he only had days to live, we had no idea that news was coming as he was on a newly targeted drug and we had hope that it was working. We had plans, we were housesitting in the country for the whole of September and we were going to New Zealand at Christmas. He has now past the date that his Doctor gave him and wants to make it to his birthday, but it his gut wrenching seeing him cry every day and get so weak he has to sleep most of the day. It feels cruel that we have to grieve now but then a whole new level of grief will be coming after he passes. Sometimes I feel like I just want to go with him and that I can’t do this life without him but I know that’s unfair on my family. I just feel sick all the time
