My dad is 85 and has had lung cancer for around 2 years. He refused any treatment and thought he could fix it all himself.
He was in hospital for a month and has been home for almost a week, he has deteriorated and we’ve been told he only has a couple of days left max.
He has been a great dad and I couldn’t have asked for any more from him, I feel grateful that we have had this time to say goodbye and tell him how much we all love him and share old memories. And he has got to meet his grandson who is 4 months old. But I am still terrified for when he takes his last breath and how it will effect my mom.
I don’t know what I’m looking for from this message, I just feel so lost and helpless and I don’t know what to do to make things better. Sometimes I think it would be better for everyone mostly dad if he went right now, but then one more smile or one final I love you is worth more than anything at the moment.
I feel broken and lost
