Hello

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Hi all,

My mum was diagnosed with lung cancer in 2019 (I think, maybe it was 2018, very easy to lose track) and had a couple of rounds of chemo, followed by tablets since last November when she was classed as terminal. She had been keeping pretty well until a couple of months ago when she started to become a bit unstable.

She has just had confirmation that there is cancer in a couple of areas in her brain and is meeting with the consultant next week to discuss a radiotherapy treatment to stabilise those. She has also received some radiotherapy in the base of her spine for a cancer there that is/was causing some pain.

I've had time to come to terms with my mum's initial diagnosis and I think because it's been a few years now and she's been very positive and largely well I haven't thought about this part too much. It now feels like we are speeding towards the end game and I feel a bit like I haven't made the effort to get things in place and do the things I would've liked to have done. 

I feel a bit overwhelmed with all of the logistics tbh and find myself torn between trying to take each day and feeling like we're running out of time.

I have been thinking and worrying about how my dad will cope and explaining all of this our children (5 and 3).

I think my dad could really benefit from attending a support group as I don't think he'd discuss how he's feeling with his friends and he doesn't give much away when I ask him.

I'd like to find a group that he could attend in person and was thinking of suggesting we go together as I know he'd come with me if I framed it that I'd like his support. I also would like the opportunity to speak to people who have been through this in person and while I've got some friends who have, it never seems the right time to talk about this stuff without bringing down the mood.

Sorry for such a long initial post. Thanks for reading and any advice welcome.

Oh, we're in the Edinburgh, Scotland area.

Thanks in advance.

  • Maggies staff and volunteers are great. There’s a Maggies centre at the Western in Edinburgh. I used to stop in plus they probably have counsellor types available. My father, who is in his 80s has recently agreed to some 1-2-1 counselling - much to our surprise - he’s the strong silent type but he’s so upset with mum’s terminal diagnosis and move to palliative care. You might be surprised what your dad will agree to. It could be easier to talk to a stranger - less embarrassing if you get upset?

    Hope it goes well, take care. 

  • Thanks DiMac.

    I'll contact Maggies and see what groups/support they can suggest/offer.