Hi everyone, I don’t really know where to start. This is all really new to me but reaching out to try and gather some support and thought this was the best place.
My mum has been diagnosed with an aggressive form of cancer which has spread through her womb and lymph nodes to different parts of the body. She is due to start chemo next Wednesday. it is terminal and only palliative care. They have said without chemo she would have only 4 months but with there is a chance at a year or two.
I’m so close to my mum, she’s my best friend and I talk to her everyday and I feel like I’m not ready in anyway. She is being amazing, strong and positive and I’m trying my best to do the same for her. I am finding it extremely challenging to navigate.
To add to things I’ve got a newborn who is only 2 months old. Pretty overwhelming. I’m in a different city 2 hours away from mum and they have said that we need to be so careful and for her not to travel during chemo. How do you find the balance? I want to see her as much as possible but don’t want to put her at risk or exhaust her in anyway. It’s so difficult. I’d love some advice from anyone who has had similar situations. Thank you
Hi, firstly I'm so sorry you are going through this, it is certainly not easy and there are so many unknown aspects to these situations.
My dad was diagnosed with cancer in August 2020, I was pregnant and due in the December 2020 and we went through lots of lockdowns and he was told the same that he needed to stay at home because he was vulnerable. I'm also 2 hours away from them. If i'm completely honest, it was really hard and there wasn't really a balance. When he was having chemo and was at his weakest, I didn't see him because I just didn't want to risk him feeling even worse by me potentially giving him a cold or covid etc. Once he was in a slightly better place, I saw him monthly (he didn't meet my little girl until she was 5 months old because of lockdowns and shielding). I would go to see him for weekends at a time each month and we booked little breaks away as a family. It was heartbreaking and I knew that there wasn't a plan I was happy with because I was torn between thinking if I saw him and gave him a virus then it could kill him but then if I didn't see him then I was wasting precious time. I never did find a balance really.
His cancer has sadly returned and is now incurable, this time I have asked him what he wants. I have told him that I am here whenever he needs or wants me and I will drive to his at 2am if he wants me to. Equally, I have told him that I wouldn't be offended if he didn't want to see me one particular weekend if hes feeling really poorly. I have let him know I support and respect whatever decisions he makes.
It is completely valid for you to feel like this, I suppose something I eventully found was that I needed to accept that I can't control whats happening, I can't change it and it isn't going to feel ok. What I can do is take things one day at a time, if that means I cry all day then thats ok and if that means I can be more level headed about it then thats ok too.
Keep going and take things one step at a time. Sending love x
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