My dad has recently been diagnosed with cancer after a misdiagnosis, back in March he had a lump apear behind the knee it was causing him alot if pain so he took a trio to a&e where he was told he had a cyst that would go away on its own, sadly this wasn't the case and his leg got worse pretty quick and he could no longer walk so he called for an ambulance and back to hospital and checks were done and he was told he has a tumor ( sarcoma ) in the knee was sent home again after 3 weeks during this time a referral was made which took another 3 weeks finally he is picked up and taken to Stanmore hospital and he is told his cancer has spread and nothing can be done and that he actually has months to live if that!! The reason for my post is because I don't no what to do an I feel like I am going out of my mind this can't be happening it can't be real i can't accept that nothing can be done I want my dad to get better I don't want him to go I can't stop crying i try but I can't and I feel alone i have no one who understands i need someone who understands i don't no if it will help i just need something to feel less alone right now my poor dad he never thought it would be this and now he is bed bound just waiting for that dreaded day, I want to be with him cos I don't want him alone but its so painful to watch what is happening to him, he says he isn't scared but I'm sure he is an I hate that, my mum also has cancer and has just had her first chemo today so she can't visit him now or really be around people as she is vulnerable I'm just lost really and its only going to get worse I've tried to call a doctor I've tried to find groups but this is all I can find , I need help i can't do this I don't no how.
Hey
Thank you for your reply, I'm so sorry to hear about your father I wish and pray for things to be different and that he can get better..
Sadly my father passed away on Monday the 12th September 
I was by his side to the end and I am now feeling traumatised with what I saw, I close my eyes and all I can see is my dad's last moments I'm hoping this image fades, I would never of left my dad to die alone so I'm glad I was there with him to comfort him I'll deal with the after affects just finding it so hard at the moment it's all still so raw and it's happened wat to fast.
It's been nearly 5 days I miss my dad so much i wish I could go back in time to be with him again.
I am here for you if you ever have any questions or just need to talk if I can help i will.
I never found any support groups really and I don't find this group much help either I wanted to find a group in person to meet and talk maybe cry and just no that we are not alone even talking on the phone i feel would of been better then this as I'm not good with writing things out so excuse the typos or incorrect grammar.
Reach out any time I'm here xx
