My mum is in her late 50s we didn't have the best relationship because she also had throughout her life a battle with alcoholism and severe mental illness.
My mum managed to become sober and has been for 3 years when she started to feel ill. 2 months ago she was given an incurable diagnosis of liver cancer brought on my the damage to her liver because of the drink. She is now only receiving medicines for pain relief as we've been told she has roughly only months to live. What seems worse is we now get on better than we ever have before. And it's horrible it will be taken away.
I feel like none of it is quite real and we're all sat around waiting for the inevitable to happen and not knowing when, will I make it in time to say goodbye is hard to deal with. I'm also a Mum myself and part of me feels like I just want to stop time for little bit or just shut off but that's impossible. I have family support but none of them know quite what to say its just the pity talking which is lovely but sometimes not helpful.
Does anyone else feel the same? Some days I'm not quite sure what to think or feel or what to do
Thank you
